Amber and Aaron

Amber and Aaron

The Fun We've Already Had...

  • Graham Tomas born July 31 at 5:04 P.M. weighing 8 lbs, 12 oz.
  • December 2, 2011: PREGNANT!!!
  • Paisley Kate arrived August 21 at 5:38 P.M. weighing 7 lbs, 9 oz
  • DUE DATE: August 25, 2010!!!
  • Dec. 14, 2009- PREGNANT!!!
  • Oct. 07,2009- Had elective D&C.
  • Sept 28, 2009- No embryo on ultrasound. :(
  • Sept 15th, 2009- We found out we're PREGNANT!!!
  • Sept '09- Aaron had varicocele repair.
  • July '09- IUI #1 with HCG shot= No such luck
  • April '09- Ovarian drilling surgery, followed by hospitalization for uterine infection
  • Jan-Mar '09- metformin + 3 rounds of clomid= no ovulation
  • Dec. 11, 2008- Hysterosalpingogram (Fancy word for shooting dye through the ovaries. OUCH)
  • Nov '08- Sent to RE. Tried metformin alone for two months (No ovulation)
  • Oct '08- Diagnosed with PCOS based on amenorrhea and crazy hormone levels.
  • June '08- Aaron convinced me to start trying.
  • June '04- Got Hitched!

Monday, January 30, 2012

Questions Answered

I've had several questions that we've been getting a lot of from both our real life friends and family as well as my loyal blog followers.  So, I thought I'd answer a couple of them.

1.) We are about 90% certain that we are going Team Green again.  It just feels right for us.  I'm not one for surprises in any other circumstance and I go crazy waiting to know what my friends are having.  But, I LOVED Paisley being a mystery and the absolute breath-taking moment when they announced that she was a GIRL.  I am also 100% happy with either another little girl or a boy.  Honestly.  Plus, not knowing makes our family crazy and that's just kinda funny.

2.)  We didn't exactly TRY for this baby but we certainly weren't trying to avoid having another one.  I never went back on birth control after Paisley and hoped that this would happen, but really didn't expect it.  While nursing, I had no periods and then they were erratic.  The last one before I got pregnant was the first normal one.  I had made an appointment to see our infertility doc again but that was when Aaron was hospitalized so we didn't exactly make it.  And then I was too afraid to reschedule because I just knew that he would tell me that I was no longer fertile.

3.)  We are finished after this little one.  For sure.  I really only knew that I wanted one baby, but I feel like I can definitely manage 2.  Three kids makes me feel ill and panicky.  I give so much credit to the mamas who raise 3+ kiddos.  It takes a strong woman. 

Anyways, I'm off to wrestle my little night owl down for the evening.  Still not quite sure how you take care of two kids.  :)

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Pregnancy #3

This pregnancy has been a piece of cake.  It's made it easy to keep it a secret, because I have a hard time remembering that I'm actually carrying around a tiny human.  Sure my belly is getting larger and my appetite is equal to that of a 300 pound man.  But otherwise, I'm symptom free this time.

Obviously the 1st pregnancy was just a huge disaster with the miscarriage and I can't honestly remember how I felt during because the only thing I remember was how much it hurt to lose that baby.  Didn't really have time to think about morning sickness or moodiness.

Paisley's stay in the uterus was marked by pronounced nausea throughout the 1st trimester, extreme fatigue (could have swore I had the flu), food aversions, volatile mood swings (sad and angry), and extreme worry.  I listened at least once a day with our doppler and freaked out the whole time in between.  An ultrasound would provide about 20 minutes of reassurance before I would start the whole "what if" game in my crazy little head again.

But this time is different.  And very pleasantly so.  I found out by taking a home test when I realized that I was several days late.  The only reason I checked was that I had a bottle of wine with my name on it and I decided it would be irresponsible if I didn't make sure that I wasn't pregnant.  But just like the other 2 times, I knew I was.  When that urine hit the stick, I knew 2 lines would appear.  I've only had that feeling 3 times and it was right on the money every time.

Aaron and I immediately began making plans and privately celebrating instead of crying myself to sleep at night with worry and fear.   There have been days that I've actually had to calculate how far along I am, whereas with Paisley I could have told you to the minute.  I've been super active this pregnancy with playtime and even exercise as opposed to the last one when I felt like if I got up from a chair too quickly, she might just fall out.  Not kidding.

Most of all, I feel calm and confident and whole.  This baby completes our family.  And my heart grew 5 sizes the day this little one came into existence.  This infertile girl has won.  And I pray with every bit of my soul that the same happens for each one of you out there on the same path.  :)

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Secrets Don't Make Friends

I'm not one for keeping a secret about myself.  I've always been a very open book and like to share with the world anything they'd like to know.  My friends probably know WAY too much information about my bowel habits, embarrassing stories, and menstruation.  Not exactly a shy girl.

Which makes it all the more amazing that I can keep a pregnancy secret for so long.  With Paisley, I announced it at 13 weeks after our NT scan.  Even then, I would have hid it longer if my belly bump wasn't starting to give me away.  It's kind of fun being one of the only people who knows that you are growing a miracle in your uterus.  And let's face it- who likes thinking that their boss, parents, and even strangers are calculating exactly when something personal may have been happening with the spouse.

With that little tidbit of useless information, I'd love to announce that our 2nd baby is due in August!!!  I'm 12 weeks pregnant and things are checking out perfectly.  We are so incredibly thankful that a no treatment baby could happen for us.    I would have posted this much sooner, but we have so many real life friends and family who read my blog that I couldn't let the news slip until now.  It gave us a wonderful opportunity to tell people in person this time around and really celebrate our growing family.

I'll post more about how I found out and how I've been feeling tomorrow.  Just wanted to let you in on my little, ever-growing secret!!!

Sunday, January 22, 2012


Our little family has never been so sick ever before.  This winter has hit us like a freight train and just when I think we're all feeling good again, the next "bug" seeks us out and attacks us.  We've had flu-like viruses, colds, stomach bugs, all the good stuff.  Mostly, I've gotten the worst end of it and somehow Paisley has come out on top.  She has still not ever had to go on antibiotics (17-months-old) which makes me super happy.  In fact, she makes it hard to tell she's even sick until the vomiting starts or I check her temperature.

Being from the medical world, I believe that patients are strongly overtreated with antibiotics.  Our bodies are meant to fight off illness and we build up tolerance to antibiotics quickly if overused.  So, I am thankful that this tiny little person has really done so well.

Her parents, however, have not faired quite so gracefully.  I mean, really, Aaron even ended up in the hospital in September from some mysterious illness leading to rhabdomyolysis.  Does it make sense?  Not at all.

And I know we aren't the only ones sick this year, but I never got sick when I worked in family practice.   The constant exposure seemed to keep me healthy even though I was constantly seeing people with pneumonia, flu, and viruses galore! 

So, what do you do to keep your family healthy?  And has it been a worse than usual year for you health-wise?

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Chatty Cathy

Paisley has found her voice and she is using it to her fullest potential these days.  It seems like over the past month, her vocabulary is blossoming.  She already was ahead of the curve at her 12 month appointment by knowing more words than our pediatrician expected.

But now she seems to be learning at least one new word every day.  And she'll repeat everything like a little adorable parrot.  Except not so cute when the word she chooses is "crap" out of a paragraph with 50 words...

Today her word is "happy".  And it is sweet.  I'll ask, "are you happy?" and she'll say "happy, happy, happy".  She says it cuter than anything I've ever heard other than "mama".  And I like to think that it's because she actually is happy...

Also this week, we were getting ready to leave for the clinic and I said "let's go bye-bye".  She turns and starts marching towards the front door saying "hut-two, hut-two".  Not even quite sure where she got that since we don't exactly practice military like behavior in our house, but I loved it anyways.

Crazy how many times a day she makes me laugh now with what she says and the things she does.  Looking forward to seeing what next month has in store for us!

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Difficult Baby

When talking to a friend this week who has 4 children (one of which is a handful), I realized something about Paisley.   She is a difficult child.  And I would have thought that difficult meant bad before having a child but now I realize that they are two totally different adjectives.

She isn't bad at all.  In fact, I haven't had to spank her yet and rarely have to tell her no.  And it isn't because I'm ignoring things or letting her act crazy.  She just doesn't get into things that aren't hers and rarely throws fits or acts up  (huge exception is putting her in the carseat at times).  She's very loving and affectionate.  She's interactive and playful.  And now that her vocabulary is expanding, she's getting really funny.

But difficult.  This started on Day 1.  She didn't let us put her in the plastic bassinet like every other baby without screaming.  Endlessly.  She wanted to be in our arms at all times, day and night.  She never slept well.  We tried all the surefire ways of getting a baby to sleep: swaddling, rocking her to sleep, sound machine, lying her down awake, cereal in the milk, her swing, her bouncer, car rides, warm bath, nighttime lotion, bedtime routine, etc.   Nothing made any difference.  And she still doesn't love to sleep.  Or really need to for any length of time.  She doesn't require much rest to have 150% of my energy level.

Eating is a challenge.  She only breastfed for 9 months, refusing to take a bottle ever.  We bought 75 types of bottles with 100 nipples creating an astounding combination which all failed.  Now she hates solids, after a brief period of eating anything we offered.  She'd rather have all calories come from milk.  And at times, that's where it does come from.  Because she refuses everything else like it may kill her if it even touches her lips...

Her activity level is outrageous.  Her tiny little legs are in constant motion.  We let her walk everywhere we go so it may wear her out.  She ran all over the Science Museum yesterday and did take a ninety minute nap following.  I was exhausted!  She can get out every single toy she owns in about 8.2 seconds and then be bored with them all just as quickly.

I wouldn't trade her for the world though.  She's developing into the most incredible little person I've ever met and she surely has enough confidence and spunk to carry her through some tough situations in life.   Well, I'm off to continue chasing my ball of fire through the house!