Amber and Aaron

Amber and Aaron

The Fun We've Already Had...

  • Graham Tomas born July 31 at 5:04 P.M. weighing 8 lbs, 12 oz.
  • December 2, 2011: PREGNANT!!!
  • Paisley Kate arrived August 21 at 5:38 P.M. weighing 7 lbs, 9 oz
  • DUE DATE: August 25, 2010!!!
  • Dec. 14, 2009- PREGNANT!!!
  • Oct. 07,2009- Had elective D&C.
  • Sept 28, 2009- No embryo on ultrasound. :(
  • Sept 15th, 2009- We found out we're PREGNANT!!!
  • Sept '09- Aaron had varicocele repair.
  • July '09- IUI #1 with HCG shot= No such luck
  • April '09- Ovarian drilling surgery, followed by hospitalization for uterine infection
  • Jan-Mar '09- metformin + 3 rounds of clomid= no ovulation
  • Dec. 11, 2008- Hysterosalpingogram (Fancy word for shooting dye through the ovaries. OUCH)
  • Nov '08- Sent to RE. Tried metformin alone for two months (No ovulation)
  • Oct '08- Diagnosed with PCOS based on amenorrhea and crazy hormone levels.
  • June '08- Aaron convinced me to start trying.
  • June '04- Got Hitched!

Friday, April 27, 2012

True Love

Paisley watching over a dog while he was under anesthesia for surgery.

Pointing out body parts (she's saying "eye")

My happy baby girl

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

25 weeks???? Already???

This week it really hit me that I'm on the home stretch now with this pregnancy.  I've crossed the mid-way point and then some!   It's hard to believe that I'm 25 weeks pregnant because I feel SOOOO good.  And I know that makes some of you want to disown me, but I am so happy that it's been enjoyable again.
Gained 15 pounds at this point which is a little less than I'd gained with Paisley at this point.  And this little fetus is much larger than she was!!!  I'm eating about 5-6 meals a day to keep the hunger at bay, so I should have gained 50 by now.  :)

With her, I had quite a lot of back pain by now and sleep was awful because of my hip and pelvic bone pain.  They felt like they were being pryed apart by something VERY strong.  I still remember the discomfort.  And yet, I thought my pregnancy with her was easy.  I enjoyed it up until the day I delivered.  And even that wasn't as bad as I expected.

But this go round, I feel non-pregnant.  I'm super active with Paisley still.  She loves for me to "play horse" which entails me getting on all fours so she can ride on my back.  I carry her 10 hours a day (she's still a cuddler), work 2 jobs and even built a swingset last weekend.  I have to remind myself that I need to take it easier than usual and not to overdo it.   Yet, I get to feel the sweet kicks and rolls in my belly.  This couldn't be a better pregnancy.

And I know I have 15 weeks left that can kick me in the rear, but I'm so glad that I've had 25 that have been pleasant.  Now I'm on the lookout for someone who needs a surrogate.  Not sure that anyone would pick a girl that is 2/3 on pregnancy success, took FOREVER to get pregnant and has PCOS.  But a girl can dream...

Friday, April 20, 2012

BIG baby

Today's OB visit and ultrasound were interesting.  First of all, they are giving me two-thumbs up for travel and are just deciding now whether they think anti-malarials are really worth it since malaria is such a low risk in that area.  And also which bug spray will be safe for me to prevent mosquito bites.  Otherwise, no issues so I'm on my way to the beach!!!   Unfortunately, the bikini body is currently MIA but I'll still be stuffing myself into them.

Especially considering that again on ultrasound today, Baby Deuce is measuring over 2 weeks ahead.  I should be 24w and 2d, yet I measure 26w and 3d in EVERY area they measure.  And two weeks ago, I was measuring 2 weeks ahead.  So, Baby is large.  And apparently, so is my belly.   It was the 1st visit where we measured fundal height and are you ready for a shocker?

I measure 27 weeks.  Fantabulous.  For those who are REALLY bad at math, 3 weeks ahead of schedule.  Which is not totally surprising to me considering how much my belly has grown recently.  And I feel like this child is taking up every square inch of my torso already.  I'll have simultaneous kicks to my ribs on both sides and by my bladder.  It's quite impressive.

I can't do the glucose test this pregnancy because it nearly killed me last time.  My glucose was 29 last time and I made them draw my blood at 45 minutes because I couldn't wait any longer.  SO, they have me doing finger sticks about 8 times a week and were starting to suspect gestational diabetes due to this baby's size and my PCOS, but my first 2 sticks have been well within the normal range!  Hooray!!!

Great news: the cord was nowhere near the neck today!!!  Plus, my placenta is way far away from my cervix (no previa here) and my cervix is still over 4 and sealed like Fort Knox.  Which is great considering that it is solely responsible for holding in a mammoth-sized baby!  :)

Now, the real question is how on earth do you think I can give birth to this baby?  Paisley was 7 pounds, 9 ounces and left me ripped apart with a giant episiotomy that was less-than-pleasant for a while.  And she always measured right on schedule...  Let's shoot for a July baby!


Thursday, April 19, 2012

Travel

Long ago, we booked a trip for the Dominican Republic from May 4-11.  Paisley and my mom will be going too and we've all really been looking forward to it.  (Well, Paisley isn't so much because she doesn't quite get future plans yet!)   A week of lying around on the beach, swimming in the pool and ocean and eating delicious food in a relaxing setting.  What's not to love?!?

Except that I'm becoming more and more paranoid about something going wrong with my pregnancy.  No reason for it.  Maybe it's that I have an ultrasound tomorrow to re-check the whole scary nuchal cord business.  And ultrasounds ALWAYS get me freaked out the week before.  All it takes is one horrifying, mind-numbing, heart-breaking ultrasound when you don't see a heartbeat...

But the point is, I'd be far from home.  Yet I'm at no higher risk for premature labor than anyone else and my chance at 26 weeks is pretty slim.  That's why she wanted me to travel in the 2nd trimester. Of course, I'll talk to my OB about it tomorrow because I definitely need the break.  A week of little-to-no-stress is just what the doctor ordered.  Especially with my mom there to wrangle the crazy toddler who is wearing me out.   And maybe she'll want me to stay close to home, maybe she won't.  I'm going to put the ball in her court.

Thoughts???

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Viability

The 24 week mark was such a relief for me during my last pregnancy and it has proven to be again this time.  I've been feeling so anxious the last couple of weeks with such a ridiculous feeling of dread that something would go wrong.   And knowing that no one would be able to even try to save my child at that point was heart-wrenching. 

No reason to feel so much panic.  I feel great.  Still working.  Still playing with Paisley like crazy.  But you know how the infertile mind works.  Especially since the only time things ever go right for us is during pregnancy (with the exception of our 1st one, obviously- that sucked big-time). 

So, I feel happy today.  We are one step closer to completing our miracle family with this sweet baby.   We keep getting the comments that maybe we will want another one or questions about if we're sure we're done.  First off, I never wanted more than 2 kids ever.  Aaron would have said 3 at one point in his life, but I think Paisley opened his eyes to that being a bad idea!  :)

But even more than that, it will be such an incredible relief to me to start taking my birth control again which made me feel so much better while on it. I won't have to lie in bed and wonder whether or not I'd ever be able to get pregnant again.  I won't ever have to see another temp chart on my night stand.  I won't ever see another positive test and then cry hysterically for fear of what might go wrong. 

And even though I love being pregnant, it really is fear-inducing for me.  This time has been easier, but I still have the daily worries that maybe something isn't okay.  So, this chapter will soon close and our life with our 2 kids begins.  I get to regain control of my life!

Monday, April 16, 2012

My Beautiful Girl




Lately, Paisley's looks take my breath away.  I've always thought she was cute, but her baby looks are changing for little girl beauty now.  She makes the most amazing expressions and has the sweetest, softest little voice.  I feel like she isn't actually made up of our genetic material at all, because neither of us is as good-looking as her!  Now, the only thing I have on her is that she cannot smile for pictures to save her life!!!

Last night, Aaron was taking her down the hallway to her bedroom for bedtime and he said tell your mom "good night".  She smiled so adorably at me and said bye-bye while waving her hand like a beauty queen, then blew me a kiss.  For us this is major progress from the days of her throwing up at bedtime because it would make her so upset.  I much prefer this!!!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

23 weeks: Belly Photos Included

I've been reminded that I'm doing TERRIBLY at posting pictures of my belly.  Well, there is one simple reason for that.  I'm also awful at taking them!  For some reason, the weeks just pass by too quickly to sneak in one quick picture of my ever-growing bump and a certain 19-month-old is keeping me on my toes! 

Also, I just don't feel as cute this time around.  I haven't gained any more weight than I did the first time around and my bump probably looks about the same, but it just feels different.  My maternity clothes seem to look funny now and I never have the time or energy to do my hair and make-up like I did the 1st time. 

This is Paisley's belly bump for comparison to now- I think it's VERY similiar.
Current Pregnancy!  Up to a 12 pound weight gain after a rapid gain this past week...
And Paisley in utero.

Notice that I'm too lazy to even tape the sheet up this time.  :)
Anyways, I still feel great and I still adore being pregnant.  The movement is always going to be my favorite and this little one does LOTS of it.  :)  Just really excited to see this sweet little baby and know who's been growing in my belly so rapidly!!!

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Mother's Day Out!!!

Paisley has finally gotten a spot in the Mother's Day Out program that we love!  In fact, it's the only one we even liked enough to consider.  One of those places that just makes your heart feel good when you walk in.  The teachers had all of their teeth and appeared to appreciate good hygiene, the toys and facilities were clean and updated, they even have a well-put together learning program for each of the age groups.

Playing at a birthday party!  Not easy to maneuver through playgyms while pregnant...

Snuggling her kitty, Squirrel.



But probably what speaks highest of them is that we have been on the waiting list since Paisley was 7 months old.  That was a LONG time ago.  People don't leave this program once they get in.  But lucky for us, a summer spot is open so she'll be starting in June.  :)

Loving on a patient at the clinic.
Running quite an efficient egg-dyeing facility.
Dyeing Easter eggs- we bought 4 dozen eggs which she did ALL of them.

Monday, April 9, 2012

No more labs please

For those of you who were concerned that I am having too lovely of a pregnancy, worry no longer.  Not only am I on antibiotics for my bacterial vaginosis (gross every time I say it), and possibly have a nuchal cord issue- the doc's office gave me what seems like my daily phone call of crappy news to let me know that I'm Group B strep positive.

Which is totally not a surprise considering I was last pregnancy too and had to be given IV antibiotics during labor to reduce Paisley's chances of getting sick from it.  So I figured I would be again, but still....  Just one more thing to add to the list of things to worry about creating complications.  I'm pretty sure I'm not a great candidate for a home birth even if I was anti-hospital care.  (Which I'm definitely not- I want as much monitoring and support available as humanly possible.  In fact, if you'd like to admit me at any point during pregnancy just to keep an eye on things, I'd be all for it). 

When it rains it pours...  Luckily, I think all my labs are officially back.  :)

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Happy Easter

Hey friends,
Sorry about my pity party I was in the last couple of days.  I guess I had forgotten how terrifying pregnancy can be since Deuce has been so content in there.  This is the first time this pregnancy that I've had anything to truly worry about, even though they are both situations that affect alot of pregnant women and both have mostly good outcomes.  It's that mostly that stops my heart.

But, today I feel that everything will be fine.  I'm taking it easier than I have been, napping every chance I get, working less, and not working out at all.  Just savoring the sweet baby kicks and loving my growing belly.   I've done this before (bacterial infection and all) and have a perfect baby girl to show for it.  And guess what?  I'm going to succeed again.  It's just almost too good to believe that we are going to have TWO amazing kids after all we've been through...

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Stupid Infection

My urine culture came back fine, but apparently I have bacterial vaginosis again.  Yeah, I know- YUCK.  I had this throughout my pregnancy with Paisley but it caused a bit of a smelly discharge then.  This time around, it isn't causing any of its typical symptoms which means that either a.) it's really early on that we caught it  OR  b.) it's been there for a while because it's being sneaky. 

Either way, I'm almost positive the antibiotics won't treat it again and it will continue to be there until Deuce is born.  After I had Paisley, it just went away on its own.  But of course, it carries with it that ever so frustrating increased risk of premature labor and rupture of membranes.  And I've been having that stupid irritable uterus feeling for the past 3 days.  (Less now than Thursday's trip to get an ultrasound, but still enough to terrify me.)

And if you do the math, I have either 11 days or 9 days until viability.  So cut the crap, vagina.  You are definitely not coming into contact with any bacteria right now.  I'm giving you antibiotics now to get you well.  Just stop giving me things to worry about all of a sudden!

Friday, April 6, 2012

Unexpected Ultrasound Yesterday

Yesterday morning at work, I felt a tightening in my stomach that was coming and going.  It wasn't painful so I didn't think much about it until it was staying consistently like that and beginning to become uncomfortable. 

I texted my OB (who works upstairs from me) who told me to come up immediately.  Which I figured she would.  Both the OB and NP met me and did a quick exam which showed a nicely closed cervix and did a fetal fibronectin (shows likelihood of labor within 2 weeks) which soon came back negative.   They did a urine culture which is negative and a vaginal culture (pending). 

They sent me to the hospital for an ultrasound since our tech was out sick.  Bad luck.  After waiting forever lying down, my abs-of-steel relaxed and felt fine.  Baby Deuce was moving around like crazy and kicking hysterically at the ultrasound probe.  Measuring 24 weeks now so this little peanut is a bit larger than Paisley was.  Also weight is estimated at 1 pound, 6 ounces now which I think is crazy!

But best news is that my cervix was nice and long and closed!  They measured it at 4.7 which is great.  Only concern which, of course, now has me freaking out is that the tech mentioned on my report sent to the OB that I have nuchal cord entrapement.  My OB says that's a really hard thing to see on US and that it can still correct itself before birth.  He says that he would still let me go into labor on my own and we'd just monitor baby's heartrate closely during labor to watch for decelerations indicating that we need to do a c-section.  But he says that would be unlikely IF it's even really a nuchal cord.

So, we re-check on ultrasound in 2 weeks.  Fingers crossed...

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Free Time....

When do you all find time in a day for yourself?  I never thought this would be so difficult, but it really is.  24 hours suddenly seems SO short.  The minutes fly by and even things that NEED to get done, just don't.  And when I do capture that special rare hour when she's asleep or busy with Dad, I can't decide how I most want to spend it.

Do I relax and take a nap or bath?  Should I be useful and catch up on chores?  Maybe exercise?

I have found that I can make a lot of things happen in a very short period of time since having Paisley.  When I do find a free second, it's amazing what I can accomplish now since I have no time to procrastinate.  If it isn't done that minute, it probably won't ever get done.

In the 2 hours she was with Aaron the other day, I organized all of her baby clothes in case we have another girl, cleaned out the drawers in our study, fed the pets, hung up my laundry, went through my maternity clothes, and ordered pictures off my cameras.    Before kids, I would have made 1-2 trips to the restroom and changed TV channels a couple of times.  :)

It would just be so nice if I didn't always feel pulled in SO many directions.  And adding numero dos is sure to make this puzzle even more difficult to solve.  Just wish there was an easy answer!!!