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My feelings have been all over the place since those double lines appeared on the test. I have truly felt almost every single emotion possible in a much more exaggerated manner. On the outside, I probably seem secluded at times. What's really going on is I'm focused.

I'm focused on ignoring the stress around me and making sure my body stays calm. It's crazy how much my world changed. The only thing that I care about right now is protecting this baby. I'm not as worried about myself or my own emotions if I lose this pregnancy, but feel sad that we'll never meet this little one.

I have been truly blessed with the best support system. I'm so incredibly sorry that I know so many people who have experienced infertility or miscarriages, but you all have given me the best advice and understanding possible. One of these friends (KW) had dinner with me last night. She is one of the most unselfish and caring people I know. She has endured her own loss this year, but is still a fantastic cheerleader for my pregnancy. It's so nice to have someone who truly understands all of my emotions and doesn't need me to explain why I feel a certain way. She's already been through it, thought it, or felt it before.

I'd also like to acknowledge another friend (BB) who recently had a miscarriage. Your words of encouragement mean the world to me. Somehow hearing them from someone who just went through what I'm obviously fearing the most helps me to feel at peace. You are one of the voices of reason that help me to feel calm about all of this.

I'll be posting some baby bump pics really soon as well as our first ultrasound on Monday. Hope everyone is doing well!!!

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  1. JessSeptember 24, 2009 at 7:43 PM

    Nothing beats a great support system! I'm so glad you have friends around you to support you right now!

    And yes, you have a very important job!

    babyparamore.blogspot.com

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  2. KandiceSeptember 25, 2009 at 7:58 AM

    It's so funny you posted this because literally I was coming on here to write almost the exact same blog. (I still will) I will ALWAYS be here for you no matter what the future will hold. I don't know if I've ever prayed for someone so much. Thank you for being YOU!!!

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  3. AnonymousSeptember 25, 2009 at 9:49 AM

    That's awesome that you have such great friends surrounding you. I feel truly blessed as well, and isn't it such a wonderful feeling to know that we will bring our babies into so much love?

    YAY FOR FRIENDS! :)

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  4. emilySeptember 25, 2009 at 4:17 PM

    Baby bump or fair belly!?! =)

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