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Those Two Pink Lines...

One year ago today, I went to work at the clinic.  Nothing unusual about the day, until I felt a familiar dizzy feeling while sitting down.  Only one other time in my life had I felt something like it and it was during my 1st pregnancy.  I knew immediately that I was pregnant again.  The month had been perfect.  I had a positive OPK, my cervical mucus finally did what it was supposed to, timing was just right. 

It was my first real cycle following my D&C and I was so hopeful that we could get pregnant again right away.  I knew that it was the only thing that would help with the pain of losing my 1st pregnancy.  So, I nervously went and got one of our tests (I work as a PA) and took it.  A faint line appeared pretty quickly and my heart sank.
That is my mom wearing the Christmas sweater in the background- not me  :)
Why would I feel so sad about something so great?  Something I'd wanted so much?  Because I had so much fear of losing yet another pregnancy already.  I couldn't survive another miscarriage yet.  And since I had JUST had my D&C, it was hard to seperate this pregnancy from the 1st.  It felt like one continuous nightmare.  I couldn't imagine how the world would play such a cruel joke on me again.  But I also couldn't believe that my body would finally do something right.  Nothing had worked out in our favor up until this point.   


 Our medical visits had consisted of us hearing one set of bad news after another.  These lab results didn't look good, this month didn't work, maybe you should consider donor embryos, we think you both need surgery, you have a uterine infection, the baby doesn't have a heartbeat...

She LOVES to play airplane!!!

But, here we are one year later.  I have a beautiful little girl following a rather enjoyable pregnancy.  My whole life has changed so much and it all began with two perfect pink lines.  Now those two little lines are a smiling, happy 3 month old (almost 4) who fills my heart with joy.  She was worth every single bit of the fear and all of the tears.

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  1. SarahDecember 14, 2010 at 6:33 PM

    Love this post :) Gave me hope! And she is TOO STINKIN CUTE :)

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  2. birthmothertalksDecember 14, 2010 at 6:53 PM

    Yep too cute!!

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  3. RELHDecember 14, 2010 at 7:30 PM

    Aww, too cute!

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  4. basebell6December 14, 2010 at 7:52 PM

    so much to be thankful for! happy 1 year anniversary of one of the best days of your life!

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  5. TraceyDecember 15, 2010 at 7:40 AM

    Love it!!!
    Today is a special day for us too - you'll see my post later.
    It is amazing what a difference a year makes!!

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  6. finchDecember 15, 2010 at 12:07 PM

    Things change suddenly. What a sweetie.

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  7. AnonymousDecember 15, 2010 at 2:22 PM

    She's just the prettiest baby, ever! Such a fashion plate! ;) I LOVE the airplane pic!

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  8. AbbyDecember 15, 2010 at 8:18 PM

    Super cute baby girl! Happy Anniversary of those two precious lines!

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  9. PriscillaDecember 16, 2010 at 12:01 PM

    Great post! And I cracked up when I saw the christmas sweater pic! xx

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