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Two week wait

I'm officially in the dreaded two-week wait now before we will know whether the IUI worked for us. I'm hoping that I'll finally be one of the lucky ones, but let's face it- luck has not exactly been on my side recently. I will be testing on July 22 if I haven't started by then. My guess is that I'll be receiving a very unwelcome visitor several days before that.

My pouting has lessened today and I'm not quite as irritable and emotionally unstable. I've always been such a stable person, so this makes me feel crazy!!! I'm not sure at all what we'll do if IUI doesn't work within 4 cycles. My suggestion is quit trying and see if a miracle will happen on its own. I'm just not interested in doing much else. I never have been and I don't think that's going to change. Especially not for $15,000... YIKES!!!

I guess the big question is will I have major regrets if I never have a child? I've never focused my life around having kids and being an only child, I cringed at the thought of more than 2 kids. But I never in my wildest dreams expected to have zero. And not by choice, but by the inability.

And I do love my life. I have the most incredible friends and family, and my husband is my best friend. I feel like I can enjoy life with him alone- after all, we'd get to travel a lot more and we love to sleep in. And we have a blast together! But I could list one million reasons that we want to bring a baby into our family. I'm just trying to ignore those for now.

So, I'm not sure where this journey is going to take us over the next year, but it sure has been a crazy ride so far. Thanks so much for all of your concern, comments, and encouragement. It is all appreciated and has kept my sanity intact for the most part!!!

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  1. KandiceJuly 7, 2009 at 2:58 PM

    You couldn't wait for this TWW...now look how much it sucks lol. jk. Get ready for lots of imaginable symptoms.

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  2. JessJuly 7, 2009 at 8:26 PM

    I hate the dreaded two week wait! I understand you not wanting to do IVF, and I pray it never comes down to that for you. I hope you get your baby in the end!

    Your post actually convinced me that being child free really wouldn't be that bad...you got me thinking about sleeping in and going on vacations! BUT you are right...there are hundreds more reasons to want a little one!

    babyparamore.blogspot.com

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  3. AnonymousJuly 8, 2009 at 3:24 PM

    I've got 4 more days left in my 2WW. Now I know what it's like to be driven mad! Gaaa!

    Your thoughts about how far you want to take your IF journey are good to work through. I think for us we'd do IVF but no donor eggs or sperm. I think that level of "I've done all I can" are unique for everyone. You should be proud of all you've gone through, and proud that you know what's right for you.

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