Smiling Through the Rain

For those who have never taken Provera which is also progesterone, let me fill you in on the fun that you have been missing. For starters, I'm taking it to bring on that special time of the month since my body is incapable of even doing that. I always counted that as a blessing, but apparently it's actually a problem. :) So, anyways, I take one pill a day for 7 days. I'm currently on Day 4 and I'm losing my mind. This is the 4th go-round for me on what I call the "crazy pill", so I know what to expect. It doesn't make it any easier to deal with really. What happens is I get incredibly hungry- I mean the kind of hungry where you are trying to decide how moldy is too moldy to eat or if expiration dates really matter. I can't concentrate at work because I feel like I'm starving to death. If that isn't enough, I also get terrible hot flashes. Menopause has nothing on this. My body actually feels like it is on fire from the inside out....

Just for those who are completely new to this whole story, I'm going to give a bit of background info into what's happened so far before I give our newest update. Aaron and I finally reached the point in our lives where we wanted to start a family- we are done with school, have good jobs, own our home, have a fantastic marriage, etc. All the right ingredients to bring a baby into this world- or so we thought. Only problem is- I have a condition called polycystic ovarian syndrome (aka: PCOS), which interferes with my fertility. So we started seeing a specialist in November for treatment, which has been a bit time consuming and emotionally overwhelming. I take a medicine three times a day that makes me utilize insulin more appropriately, go in for ultrasounds about once a week and take my temperature every morning before I even get out of bed. We've tried clomid which is an ovulatory drug five times now, but my body is not responding to it. So we are done with oral m...