Amber and Aaron

Amber and Aaron

The Fun We've Already Had...

  • Graham Tomas born July 31 at 5:04 P.M. weighing 8 lbs, 12 oz.
  • December 2, 2011: PREGNANT!!!
  • Paisley Kate arrived August 21 at 5:38 P.M. weighing 7 lbs, 9 oz
  • DUE DATE: August 25, 2010!!!
  • Dec. 14, 2009- PREGNANT!!!
  • Oct. 07,2009- Had elective D&C.
  • Sept 28, 2009- No embryo on ultrasound. :(
  • Sept 15th, 2009- We found out we're PREGNANT!!!
  • Sept '09- Aaron had varicocele repair.
  • July '09- IUI #1 with HCG shot= No such luck
  • April '09- Ovarian drilling surgery, followed by hospitalization for uterine infection
  • Jan-Mar '09- metformin + 3 rounds of clomid= no ovulation
  • Dec. 11, 2008- Hysterosalpingogram (Fancy word for shooting dye through the ovaries. OUCH)
  • Nov '08- Sent to RE. Tried metformin alone for two months (No ovulation)
  • Oct '08- Diagnosed with PCOS based on amenorrhea and crazy hormone levels.
  • June '08- Aaron convinced me to start trying.
  • June '04- Got Hitched!

Monday, November 29, 2010

You're Getting Verrrry Sleepy!!!

Ms. Paisley slept through the night the past 2 nights!  Hoooooray!!!!!  One night she slept in her cradle next to the bed and then last night she slept with us, but whatever. I miss her if she's SO far away! She fell asleep at about 10:30 and woke up at 7:00 to eat.  SUPER EXCITING!!! 

I didn't do anything different, she just slept.  And I realize that people consider it through the night if they sleep 6 hours straight, but I didn't count that.  I wanted a full 8.  My breasts would've preferred a middle of the night feeding, but they don't get a say in this.  :)

Seeing her Great-Grandpa on Thanksgiving

Looking adorable in her turkey outfit!

Enjoying IHOP on the morning after Thanksgiving which is my annual tradition with my mom
My life with her just gets sweeter all the time as she's growing up and getting more interactive.  She's found her feet and loves to try to reach them.  A good friend gave me some socks that are brightly colored and have a rattle toy on the tips so she plays in those alot.  Her bouncer seat is still her best friend and she adores the yellow giraffe attached to her carseat handle.  Some days I think I'll paint myself a flourescent color just so she'll love me as much as her toys!

She's starting to drool like crazy which leads to all of her clothes being soaked...  and I'm praying it doesn't mean a tooth is headed our way because my breasts are SO not ready for that!!!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Feeling a bit more thankful this year!!!

Thanksgiving 2009 could have been erased from the calendar for all I cared.  Same for Christmas.  We didn't even put up a tree last year because of my pitiful mood.  Why celebrate?  We had just spent our 2nd year trying to get pregnant with miserable results.  I'd had my ovarian drilling followed by unexpected hospitalization for a uterine infection.  Aaron had his varicocelectomy.  Our RE was beginning to recommend using donor "goods" since ours seemed so flawed.  Our awesome BFP turned into a nightmare when our baby failed to develop.  That was followed by a D&C.

I dreaded the holidays last year.  I had to put on that stupid fake smile and wipe away my tears so the family would think things were fine.  When the video camera came out and my mother-in-law asked what everyone was thankful for, I wanted to throw it through a window.  When I found out about several unplanned pregnancies, my heart sank with jealousy.  When everyone pitied me because I was a mess, I knew they were right.

The year seemed to center around failure, disappointment, and tears.  Until December 15th, when the year made a last ditch attempt at salvation and I got another BFP.  And now that little 2nd line on the test is an amazing 3-month-old with a ton of personality packed into her little 12 pound body!

I am thankful for her curiosity in the world around her.  And for the chance to introduce her to new things.

I am thankful for her innocence and perfection.

I am thankful for her sweet voice, amazing giggles and adorable smile.
It's pretty much impossible this year to not feel like the luckiest girl in the world.  I've been blessed with so much in my life.  She was worth every single thing we endured during 2008 and 2009.  And for the first time in a very long time, I'm actually looking forward to the holidays.  Happy Thanksgiving!

Thursday, November 18, 2010


During pregnancy, people feel compelled to give you their opinions about everything from the place you deliver to the food you eat to how much weight you've gained.  I felt like delivery couldn't come soon enough so that I could stop listening to the constant tips and advice I was receiving, not to mention those who want to relive their terrible birth experiences in full detail to someone who is about to have a baby... 

Paisley was born and the unwanted advice didn't stop.  It didn't even slow down... in fact, it increased!  Moms of newborns as well as those who now have grandkids all had passionate opinions about EVERYTHING. I have felt overwhelmed by the amount of information, both factual and craptual, that I have been bombarded with.

And let's just take a moment to realize that I'm not the kind of person who does extensive research on anything or follows the rules to a T. I think people get to wrapped up in that stuff. Aaron and I both are the kind to make last minute plans, show up late for everything, and wing it as we go.  I didn't read a single pregnancy or parenting book (still haven't), only ask advice of those who I feel have reasonable ideas, and rarely stress if I'm not like everyone else.  For example, I bought the carseat I bought because it's the one everyone else had so I figured it must be safe. 

I let my sweet pea sleep in our bed (which I LOVE), nurse on demand, and immediately address her needs when she cries.  I have no set schedule, let her stay up late (she also sleeps late), she watches TV with us at times, and I forget to do tummy time some days.  And I've been told by some that I'm making mistakes.  And maybe I am.  But it's working for us.

Paisley and I may not do anything right or "by the books", but I know she's happy, healthy and growing.  I love to read all the other blogs and see what people say about breastfeeding, formula, diapers, daycare, sleep training, development, etc.   I've learned that no 2 babies are anything alike and that my baby isn't going to follow any book.  There isn't a right or wrong when it comes to raising them in most areas.  What they need is love, affection and a stimulating environment and I feel that they'll be just fine. 

Paisley is well-loved and I can only hope that she remembers that about her childhood.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Christmas pictures

Paisley at her Christmas shoot!  I had no idea she could lift her body up so much...  :)

We're still doing good around here.  I left with her with my mom for 4 hours on Saturday morning to go work at Aaron's clinic and it wasn't too bad!  My mom loved it, Paisley never noticed, and I survived without a mental breakdown.  In fact, I didn't even cry!  :)

Sleep has been going pretty well here.  We fall asleep about 10-11 pm (I know it's late, but she won't fall asleep earlier) and she wakes up around 4:30 to eat, then sleeps until about 8-9 am.  Some nights she wrestles more than usual, but the past 2 nights she's slept soundly.  Of course she's still in our bed and I'm not quite sure when that's going to change.  The child is still not okay with being put down for naps in her crib or cradle, so I know overnight is out of the question.

She's a happy baby for the most part, but I'd never call her "easy".  She has a way she wants things done and if you don't do it her way, she throws a fit.  A little worried we have a diva on our hands....   Case in point:  she VERY reluctantly drank 4 ounces from a bottle on Saturday while my mom was watching her but threw a huge fit the whole time, just to remind her that it was not the way she wanted it.  My mom kept reminding her that it was my milk made just for her, but she didn't seem to feel like being rational about it!

She's talking more and more and gives such amazing smiles!  I love it when she coos and she started mimicing me when I stick out my tongue.  She loves her playgym now and turns her body in circles to play with all of the toys.  Her hand-eye coordination is less than perfect but she wildly throws her arms around and hits the toys hanging from it.  Super cute.  And she still adores her bouncer seat, but despises the swing...  You win some, you lose some! 

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Back to Work?!?!?!?

Aaron casually mentioned last night that maybe I should start looking for a part-time job soon.  Those seemingly harmless words opened up a floodgate of emotion and I handled it in the best way I knew how...  I cried a little uncontrollably for the next hour while holding Paisley as close as possible so as to prevent anyone from seperating us.

The "plan" (which I now refer to as "worst plan ever") from the beginning was that I would take off until somewhere around the 1st of the year and then find a part-time job.  And by part-time, he's just saying 2 days a week.  My problem with this plan now is that the 1st of the year came WAY too quickly and 2 days at work = 2 days away from this amazing baby. 

So, I panicked!  And I know how ridiculous it is.  I've been so fortunate that I'll have about 5 months at home with her and that I can just go back part-time after that.  This is an amazing situation that I've been given, and I really am thankful.  And she'll be staying with him at the clinic on the days I go to work, so we won't even have to put her in daycare.

BUT...  I will miss her so much it's unbearable!  What if I miss something?  Even if it's just that breathtaking smile that I see frequently these days.  I don't want to miss a single one.   I know she'll be fine, but I'm worried about how I'll survive without her.  During pregnancy, it was such a wonderful feeling knowing that she was always with me.  And since then, I've barely spent any time away from her. 

Arrgghhhh... I can't believe how much overwhelming love and intense affection I have developed for this little lady.  She is a vital part of me now and I have no idea what to do without her.  How am I going to send her to full-day kindergarten in 5 short years?????

Monday, November 8, 2010

Paisley's First Surgery

No need to worry- Paisley didn't have surgery.  She just "helped" her daddy out with one at the clinic.  He spayed a racoon this morning and we decided that sounded like something we might want to see, so we headed up there to watch.

Aaron and Emma (the racoon) before surgery

Me and Emma...  she's drowsy from her anesthetic

Racoons are not into S&M, she's prepped for surgery
The end of her baby-makin' days---Her uterus and ovaries are about to be gone

Paisley's excitement was overwhelming- she slept the whole time!
Everything went great with the surgery and Emma went home this afternoon feeling fine.  Well, you can't ask her how she's feeling obviously, but she was acting like herself.  :)

We love getting to spend time with Aaron during the week and I always enjoy a good surgery, so I'd say it was a great day!

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Fast Learner? Not so much...

Sure wish I had figured out 2 months ago that sleep gowns will pull on from the feet up and that it's not necessary to force those stupid things over the baby's head, causing her to get angry.  That elastic band at the bottom seemed so difficult to maneuver over her head!

Paisley's reaction to figuring out a simpler way to put on our favorite sleep attire
Why did I not notice that the head hole is huge?  Makes a girl wonder if there are other things I'm missing that would make life easier... 

We went to see Saw 3D tonight which was awesome!  I can't believe how much I miss her when I'm away for 2 hours.  Halfway through the movie I felt the urgency to rush home to her, which I resisted because Aaron would make fun of me plus the movie was great.  (If you're into ridiculously bloody movies with terrible acting-  I happen to love it). 

Things are great around here.  Paisley is getting more and more fun every day and I fall deeper in love with her every second.  It's crazy how I never feel like there's enough time in the day to spend with her, even though I'm always with her.   Her smile melts my heart, her tears break my heart, and she has shown me how much love I'm capable of having for someone else.  Truly incredible.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

More pictures...

 My mom luckily took lots of pictures from Halloween too so she had a non-blurry picture of the 3 of us!!!  Yay!  I'm super excited that we don't all have to get re-dressed up to get this shot. 
The Beekeeper with his Bees
Nothing says "Let's Party" like breastfeeding in a bee costume!!!  Does anyone else think fishnet hose are really comfortable?  Wish they were appropriate for work/church/etc....

Having a little chit-chat with her Grandma

She's obviously the highlight of this picture, but let me point out that I'm wearing pre-pregnancy jeans here...  They weren't fun to get on and definitely not as comfortable as wearing elastic waistbands, but I'm in them!!!
Question: for those who have breastfed or are currently breastfeeding, did you start having cycles again?  I haven't had a period which I know can be normal while breastfeeding, but when does it come back?  I know people have gotten pregnant while breastfeeding so some people obviously cycle.  Just curious, because there is that crazy part of me that worries that I'll go back to my old ways and never have another period...  Stupid infertility always has me worried!