Amber and Aaron

Amber and Aaron

The Fun We've Already Had...

  • Graham Tomas born July 31 at 5:04 P.M. weighing 8 lbs, 12 oz.
  • December 2, 2011: PREGNANT!!!
  • Paisley Kate arrived August 21 at 5:38 P.M. weighing 7 lbs, 9 oz
  • DUE DATE: August 25, 2010!!!
  • Dec. 14, 2009- PREGNANT!!!
  • Oct. 07,2009- Had elective D&C.
  • Sept 28, 2009- No embryo on ultrasound. :(
  • Sept 15th, 2009- We found out we're PREGNANT!!!
  • Sept '09- Aaron had varicocele repair.
  • July '09- IUI #1 with HCG shot= No such luck
  • April '09- Ovarian drilling surgery, followed by hospitalization for uterine infection
  • Jan-Mar '09- metformin + 3 rounds of clomid= no ovulation
  • Dec. 11, 2008- Hysterosalpingogram (Fancy word for shooting dye through the ovaries. OUCH)
  • Nov '08- Sent to RE. Tried metformin alone for two months (No ovulation)
  • Oct '08- Diagnosed with PCOS based on amenorrhea and crazy hormone levels.
  • June '08- Aaron convinced me to start trying.
  • June '04- Got Hitched!

Friday, May 28, 2010

Birth Plan

In childbirth class this week, our instructor told us that the more detailed the birth plan someone has, the more likely they will have a c-section. Which I've seen to be true during rotations. You've got the girl who has this perfect birth all planned out in great detail who is doomed to have the worst experience ever.

Aaron and I, on the other hand, have a simple birth plan. It is two-parts. The first I came up with and the second he added.

1.) Give birth via whatever means necessary to a healthy baby.
2.) Complete step 1 in a hospital.

If we can accomplish those 2 steps, we will be ecstatic. Our hospital has a 40% caesarean rate. Okay. I'm not one of those who wants to struggle towards a vaginal delivery no matter what. If doc gets the slightest feeling that things are headed south, I want this baby out quickly. And I know there are lots of opinions on this, but the caesareans I assisted on were many times a lot less scary and painful than the vaginal deliveries.

My very worst fear is that I will have to be induced at 42 weeks after suffering through the hottest summer ever, labor painfully for 48 hours with an epidural that is not effective, and then end up with a c-section. But if that's what it takes for my baby Gil to make a grand entrance, so be it.

My showers are coming up so I'm sure I'll get loaded up with all of the most horrific birth stories possible. Why women do this to each other, I'll never understand...

Thursday, May 27, 2010

27 weeks: Photos Attached

I finally got my pictures uploaded. Now, let's talk about something before you look at them. First of all, this is not how my hair looked all day. I pulled it up so it wouldn't show in the pictures since my head is usually cut off. And I have not been drinking although that grin sure could suggest otherwise.

I love the face in this next one. And when I mentioned it to my talented photographer (aka: Aaron), he said, "did you not want your head in this one?" Ummm.... does it look like I wanted my head in this shot? How often do you see me make this ugly of a face with that wild of hair for a picture I want to show?
But yet, here I am. Posting these for the whole internet world to see. And best part is that I'm embarrassed about my hair and stupid expression, not the fact that my belly is huge and exposed and my tank top is begging for forgiveness. So enjoy! My husband has succeeded in making me look even more ridiculous... :)

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

27 weeks

Okay, I don't know why it's soooo impossible to upload pictures tonight, but I'm too tired to try any longer. So let's just say that my belly is still growing like crazy and people are starting to think that I'm due soon. I'll post a visual for you as soon as the computer will cooperate with me.

Gil is 27 weeks old now which is hard to believe. I've gained 18 pounds which is easy to believe considering the way I've been eating. I still feel really good except that I'm not sleeping. At all. I fall asleep so easy just like the old days. But as soon as I wake up once due to joint pain or leg cramps, I might as well throw in the towel. And I'm not even urinating during the night, so I'd be able to sleep great. If that was possible. Which it obviously is not.

Remember how I got a vaginal exam at my appointment last week due to a tiny bit of discharge. Yeah, well it turns out I have a bacterial vaginosis infection along with a yeast infection. So, I'm on antibiotics three times a day, bringing my pill total to 8 per day. In a pregnancy I hoped to be drug-free. :) Of course, I also intended to eat healthy and exercise...

We had another childbirth class last night and we did an exercise where we stuck a hand in a bucket of ice to try to focus on our breathing and relaxation. What ended up happening is I fired Aaron as my coach because he apparently gets the giggles when it comes to hypnotherapy. The girl next to us actually hit him if that says anything. Glad he thinks it's funny that I have to push this gigantic baby through my hoo-hah.

So, I'm off to start counting sheep and pretending to be getting some much needed rest. Thank goodness I'll be all caught up when the baby comes...

Sunday, May 23, 2010

1st Due Date

Our first baby's due date was yesterday. It occurred to me while I was signing and dating the paperwork for our baby furniture. It almost made me feel guilty that we were out celebrating and planning for the upcoming arrival of this baby. That pregnancy still weighs on my mind. I will always wonder what I was carrying and what he/she would have been like.

We were so blessed to get pregnant again so quickly, yet it sometimes feels like we are trying to replace a baby that was only with us for a short time. And it's incredible how quickly you bond to a little person you never got the chance to meet. I remember talking to my (then) very flat stomach and praying so hard that things would go well. When we learned that the pregnancy wasn't going to work out, I sobbed so hard that I was sure my body would just fall apart. And at times, I wished it had.

But we have to move on. I have an even greater sense of awe and gratefulness for this baby after my loss and I will never forget why.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Registering for Gifts: Check!

We are officially registered for baby gifts at both Target and Babies-R-Us!!! I'm so glad we started with Target since it was WAY easier. It took as 1 hour, whereas it took us 3 full hours today at BRU to get it all done.

That store is gigantic and overwhelming. But I think we did a really good job and we definitely have a ton of stuff on both our registeries. Finding gender neutral really wasn't all that tough, considering I prefer tans, browns, and green. We also bought our furniture today (well our parents bought it) from BRU since it was 20% off this weekend and we (aka: they) saved a ton of money. It will take about 2 weeks to come in, so Aaron has time to get the carpet cleaned before I'm nagging him to put it together! I let Aaron control the gun for a while, although he was scanning items behind my back. :) You might notice my mom in the background proudly wearing her "Going to be a Grandma" shirt.
I tried out crib mattresses. We ended up going with a serta that has the cutest little lambs on it. I know you won't see the lambs but I will know they're there!

I finally got my pics scanned from this week, so better late than never- here are my 26 week shots! Poor tank top. It is really struggling to hang in there.
And, of course, the naked belly. Which feels SO much better than the belly that is dressed. It itches less, keeps me cooler, and makes me look so ridiculous. Aaron's getting used to me walking around the house and riding in the car with my belly exposed. Also, it makes it easier to watch Gil's adorable movement from the outside of my tummy.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

26 weeks (and 2 days...)

I'm a little behind on my 26 week post and I missed my 25 week altogether, so let's play a little catch-up!


For some reason, my computer doesn't want to upload my 26 week photos from the memory card of my camera, so I'll show some pictures we had taken on the cruise instead! Aaron isn't known for being very photogenic so we had to buy several of the photos taken because he looked so good in them.


As for my pregnancy, I'm feeling terrific. No real complaints at this time. In fact, I'm kinda praying for swelling, discomfort, and misery at some point so that I'm ready for it to end when it's time. Right now, I'm just blissfully soaking in every single kick, wiggle, and rollover that I feel which seems to be constant these days. The baby is even starting to react when poked which I guess is sorta mean, but it's so cute!


Going to the childbirth class made this SO real. Walking into the Joyful Beginnings Center, knowing that in a few months I will be there delivering my baby is crazy!!! And it all hit me in that second that this baby will have to come out of there. Either by way of my cervix expanding to ridiculous sizes never meant to be reached, or by a large incision across my abdomen and through all of my layers of muscle and uterus.



Hmmm, those both sound like lots of fun. And it's not that I'm really all that worried about my pain as long as Gil enters this world safely, but I'd like to see a pain-free option in this. It's gonna suck and I can't turn back. Not that I would anyways, but a girl likes choices.


I had my OB visit today and everything is looking great. Since I had a little discharge the past couple of days, we did a pelvic this time and my cervix is still nicely closed and long. She thinks it's just normal discharge, I just usually don't have any. Belly is measuring perfectly and she was actually pleased with my weight gain.




I now go in every 2 weeks for check-ups which is crazy!!! I see the high-risk doc again in 4 weeks for my 30-week growth scan to see if we need to contact the Guinness Book of World Records for largest baby ever to come through a hole the size of a pea. :)


Oh, and I now have the darkest nipples you've ever seen in your life and my linea nigra has begun to appear. Unfortunately it's kinda crooked so it makes the belly look a little lop-sided. And Aaron keeps saying it's hair, which it is NOT!!! But, no hemorrhoids or stretch marks (yet)!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Our Cruise

Finally, I have a minute to sit down and tell you about our trip! We went on a 7-night cruise on Royal Caribbean's Freedom of the Seas. It is a beautiful ship and is their 2nd largest. We spent the 2nd day on CocoCay, which is a private island in the Bahamas. We got to snorkel around some great reefs and ate a wonderful lunch cooked for us on the island. The water there is so clear and calm. (I don't have those pictures back yet since we used the disposable camera on that island.)

We spent the next day at sea and then arrived in St. Thomas, Virgin Islands for our 4th day. We had been told that we had to visit Magen's Bay which is always on the top 10 list for best beaches. When we first pulled up, it looked a little unimpressive because the locals haven't allowed tourism to take over. So it's not fancy. But the water and sand are beautiful. And it's surrounded by huge hills on 3 sides, which makes for incredibly still and perfectly clear water.

My favorite part of the ocean was being able to float on my back, which was a sight to see since my belly stuck out of the water! The next day we stopped at St. Maarten, Netherlands Antilles which is half owned by the Dutch and half by the French. We docked on the dutch side which was really beautiful. The stores were all brightly colored and had so much character. We took a taxi to Dawn Beach on the dutch side first to go snorkeling. It was so pretty!

After that, we knew we had to check out Orient Bay on the french side which is a highly-talked about beach for two obvious reasons. 1.) It's beautiful. 2.) It has a completely nude area.
So we arrive and immediately see topless women sprinkled amongst the swimsuit wearing vacationers. We decide that it's just a topless beach, no big deal. Until we walk a little further and stumble unknowingly onto a confident young fella who is sprawled out on a beach chair facing towards the "clothed" section of the beach. Even Gil was shocked...
We notice that we have crossed over a shallow row of rocks and there is a sign that announces the beginning of the nude beach. Ummm... the completely naked man kinda ruined the surprise, thank you very much. Wish we could have taken pics of the nudes but it was not allowed and where in the world do you get those pictures developed??? There was, in particular, one very well-endowed older man who was propped up on the wall close to this sign and I sincerely wish that you all could get a glimpse of what he was packing. It was as amazing as it was disgusting.

And sorry to disappoint, but we both kept our suits on! By the way, in case you ever find yourself on a nude beach, notice the interesting way people sit on there beach chairs or on the sand. It's quite unusual.
Speaking of unusual, we at one point needed to use the restroom once we went back into the dutch side to the capital which is Phillipsburg. If we'd still been at the beach, I would have taken care of business in the water as usual. Judge me all you want, it's a lot easier than getting out! Point of the story is that Aaron and I quickly noticed that both men and women were coming out of the same restroom. We realized that 2 of the stalls were marked women and 1 was men.

The last 2 days were at sea and we had a great time. We played mini golf, watched several great musicals the cruise put on, saw an incredible ice-skating performance, ate a TON of food, swam in the pool, saw a magician and a comedian, etc. The entertainment on board was the best and it was included!

At dinner, we were assigned seats at a table for 6 with two other young couples. We all got along really well and I enjoyed getting to know them all. Two were from Arizona and had just gotten married and the other 2 from Florida were engaged. The food was amazing and we'd order 2-3 appetizers a piece, at least 1 entree, and usually several desserts. We had wonderful soups, fruit, lobster, steak, shrimp, etc. which is what I blame for my 5 pounds gained!


This is Aaron on the flow-rider which is a simulated wave machine for surfing. Of course, I had to sit this out! But it looked like a ton of fun. I was hoping he'd have a major wipe out but he eventually just veered over to the side and got stuck, so he stood up and walked off. Boring!!!

Here's me at one of the 3 pools on board enjoying an ice cream. WHY did I gain weight? Hmmm...

Just enjoying some pool time. Don't mind the squinty face I'm making, it was bright and I had misplaced my sunglasses. Also, ignore the flat-tummied girl next to me. I feel like she planted herself right next to me, even posing just the same, to make herself look better! How rude!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Childbirth Classes

Aaron and I start our childbirth classes tonight and I'm really excited. We missed the 1st one since we were on our cruise, but there are still 4 more. Here's the deal: I already know quite a lot about childbirth. I've delivered babies vaginally, watched tons of babies being born, and assisted on caesarean sections. So it's not like I expect to learn a ton about the process.

The reason I'm so excited is because I get to go to childbirth classes. Because I'm pregnant!!! There were so many days that I never thought we'd ever get to this point and I feel like I'm invited to an invitation-only event. I suppose anyone could sign up, but don't ruin this for me. :) I'm pretending like it's a really exciting thing that I've earned the right to go to. Like the expectant mom parking at Babies-R-Us. In fact, when we got the letter in the mail from the hospital about our classes, I actually cried. Which is kinda psychotic.

And I love showing off my bump to everyone. It was actually my favorite part of the cruise. Everyone treats you nicer and compliments you! Speaking of the cruise, I gained a hefty 5 pounds while we were gone due to incredible food and massive quantities. So I'm at a 17 pound weight gain so far. Still hoping to stay less than 30 pounds total, but we'll see... I'll be posting pics and giving more trip details tomorrow when I have more time.

But as for now, I'm prepping up for my classes and celebrating Gil's 26th week in utero!!! This little baby is going to be debuting soon...

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Really?!?

We had a wonderful trip, which I will talk about in detail once my current mood improves. We left the ship at 9 this morning, enjoyed an hour on a bus, then took 3 flights to get home (at 9 pm) all to find that our luggage hadn't exactly came with us. And even worse, the airline has noooo idea where it is.

But wait, this gets better. We'd heard about some tornados in Oklahoma while we were gone but you don't see the news on the ship, so we had no idea... Apparently, we got damage from the tornados and the hail. Fun times when you come home and survey how much will need to be fixed and replaced in the coming weeks. We have roof damage in several places, almost all sides of our fence are currently being propped up, and lots of the landscaping we just worked on before we left is now decorating the neighboring town.

All the while, I'll be wearing my clothing I didn't see worth packing, wearing no makeup, and possibly smelling a little since we don't have any deodorant. Awesome! But seriously, we had an excellent time on the cruise and I really will talk about it soon and post pictures... (Just pray for my pregnancy temper to remain under control tomorrow while dealing with the airline.)

Friday, May 7, 2010

Gone on Vacation

We leave tomorrow for our cruise so please hold yourselves together for a week without my posts. I know it will be hard and sometimes you'll think you just can't make it through such a tough time, but I know you'll find the strength. :)

Plus, I'll be back soon enough with pictures of me in a bikini which will make it all worth it!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

24 weeks

I've made it to 24 weeks!!! This week was a huge goal of mine because it means our baby has a 50% chance of survival if born now. Obviously we are looking for many more weeks "in utero", but still a relief.


You're probably thinking that I will be posting nursery pics on here because I've been SOOO busy planning and decorating and buying. You would be SOOO wrong. I've done nothing. Zip. Nada. I don't know the safest car seat on the market, or what bedding I need for my child, I haven't even registered. In fact, the nursery is still currently a guest room. Sorry if I gave the Type A planners out there a heart attack.



It will be okay. After the cruise, we're going to get to work. We don't feel quite so much like it will be dooming this pregnancy now. Of course, lots of it will still have to wait until baby comes because we don't know if we're bringing home a son or daughter.



In great news, I overwhelmingly passed my glucose tolerance test. First of all, I loved the delicious sugary drink. It was like super hyped-up Kool-Aid. However, it made me feel like a trembling, dizzy pile of crap pretty much immediately. I thought my sugar must be high. Wrong... It was actually down to 29 at an hour. Which is really low. The goal is between 70-140. I thought I must have gotten an A+ with my super low number. Except my OB called and told me to never drink that stuff ever again. He was pretty freaked out by how much mine dropped. So, I'm NOT diabetic and I can continue to EAT!!!



Speaking of eating, let's have a little show and tell about my belly size:




My face isn't usually included in these pics, but apparently Aaron felt it necessary so you could compare my normal head size to my not-so-normal belly size. I personally think our clothes dryer has started to malfunction and is shrinking my clothes. I mean, really, look at that tank top. It used to be kinda big... If you're wondering what a belly like that weighs, 13 pounds would be the answer. And it feels heavy.

Aaron, Gil and I will be leaving for our cruise on Saturday and we are excited!!! This sexy belly is ready for some delicious cruise food and swimming!

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Thankful

This week has been Infertility Awareness Week and I have been moved by so many of the blogs I follow. It's been common this week for people to recap their journeys. I am absolutely blown away by the strength of these women and how much they have endured. What's even more incredible is that they still hold on to hope for the future and continue trying for that dream baby even after so much heartache.

At times, I don't even feel like it's fair for me to be friends with some of these girls. Maybe I didn't try long enough. I didn't have to do IVF. I only had 1 miscarriage. And most of all, I'm pregnant now. And even though I am so grateful, it makes me feel guilty at times. I will continue to read blogs of those trying because it reminds me of where I came from and how fortunate I am. And I feel so incredibly happy when those girls finally have their babies!

I still have several close friends who are struggling to get pregnant. Some are farther along in their journey than I am. Some have been through more than me already. I just want to hide my bump around them and cover up my joy, even though I know they're happy for me. I would have been just as happy for them had this all worked out in reverse. But I still wonder "why me?" They deserve it just as much, if not more, and yet here I am. I feel like the luckiest girl in the whole world.

Each kick is so precious, the heartbeat so moving, and the expanding belly so beautiful that I have been frequently moved to tears. This is so much more than I ever expected and I'm just so thankful to be experiencing it.

I want to thank all of my blog followers and my fellow bloggers for the past 2 years. It has been an absolute blessing to have you all in my life and support me through it all. This is a rough road and I would never have made it on my own. I'm so glad we decided to share all of our personal business on the internet. :) It was the best decision I have made. I've met so many incredible girls who I feel connected to, inspired by, and forever grateful towards. And I just hope 2010 will bring many more blessings to those around me.