Amber and Aaron

Amber and Aaron

The Fun We've Already Had...

  • Graham Tomas born July 31 at 5:04 P.M. weighing 8 lbs, 12 oz.
  • December 2, 2011: PREGNANT!!!
  • Paisley Kate arrived August 21 at 5:38 P.M. weighing 7 lbs, 9 oz
  • DUE DATE: August 25, 2010!!!
  • Dec. 14, 2009- PREGNANT!!!
  • Oct. 07,2009- Had elective D&C.
  • Sept 28, 2009- No embryo on ultrasound. :(
  • Sept 15th, 2009- We found out we're PREGNANT!!!
  • Sept '09- Aaron had varicocele repair.
  • July '09- IUI #1 with HCG shot= No such luck
  • April '09- Ovarian drilling surgery, followed by hospitalization for uterine infection
  • Jan-Mar '09- metformin + 3 rounds of clomid= no ovulation
  • Dec. 11, 2008- Hysterosalpingogram (Fancy word for shooting dye through the ovaries. OUCH)
  • Nov '08- Sent to RE. Tried metformin alone for two months (No ovulation)
  • Oct '08- Diagnosed with PCOS based on amenorrhea and crazy hormone levels.
  • June '08- Aaron convinced me to start trying.
  • June '04- Got Hitched!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Doctor's Visit

I had my 23-week check-up today with my OB and everything went perfect. Blood pressure is great, no glucose in the urine, belly is measuring 23.5 weeks. She found the heartbeat (in the upper 150's) and got kicked by my baby at the same time. This little one does not like the doppler anymore!

On Monday, I'm doing my 1-hour glucose tolerance test. She loaded me up with my lab sheet and bottle of sugary orange fluid. I am SOOO freaked out that this a test I'm going to fail miserably. Yes, I'm still on the metformin, but stupid PCOS increases that risk so much and let's face it- I have been loving the sweets lately.

So I'm anticipating having to do the 3-hour test in the near future. But wouldn't it be a lovely surprise if I'd just pass the 1st time??? Because if I don't, you all may not hear from me for a while. I'll be wallowing in my own self-pity pool, envying all of you out there eating your carbs and sweets...

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

23 weeks: This Baby is Definitely Growing

I really can't even believe that I'm 23 weeks pregnant. Actually, I still can't believe I'm pregnant. It still doesn't seem possible. Since I work with my OB/GYN, I can look up her schedule on my computer to check for my next appointment since I never write it down. It still takes my breath away every time I see my name on there in an OB-recheck slot. Seems like a huge scheduling error!

Yet, here I am. My belly is growing larger by the minute it seems! I've gained 12 pounds now, which is actually less than I anticipated. I'm shooting for less than 30 total, but we'll see how this never-ending appetite and swelling from the August heat affect me...

That, my friends, is the sexy belly that I'm about to be exposing in a bikini on a cruise ship in 11 days! You heard it right- I'm not buying maternity suits. Gil and I are proudly strutting our stuff in my pre-pregnancy bikinis. I've had to look at fat men in speedos at the beach all of these years, it's my turn to gross some people out. :)

Finally I have a body part that is actually curvier than my rear-end... And we're at the point now that I can use it as a tray to sit things on (my belly, not my butt). Comes in really handy at the movie theatre!

I had to include a front on view of the miracle that is my stomach. I can't believe how rounded it has become. But doesn't my button seem a little off-center here?
I'm feeling really good this week. It's the 1st time this pregnancy that I've actually had energy to do things, my reflux is under control, I'm sleeping better at times, and my bowels even started working on their own! Life is good.

Monday, April 26, 2010


I realized that I've had several new followers over the past couple of weeks and I thought I'd give a recap of what's been happenin' for us since we started TTC 2 years ago.

THE BEGINNING: My husband and I started TTC in June of 2008 after we'd been married for 4 years. I'd been on birth control for a LONG time since I'd had irregular cycles forever. Never thought much about it, kinda considered myself lucky. Somehow in the back of my mind, I always felt I'd have trouble getting pregnant. I remember even playing the "what if" game with my husband regarding us having kids.

THE OB: When I quit taking the pills, I also stopped having periods. Which equals pregnancy if you're most girls. But not me. So I went to my OB who gave me provera to start my periods. This wasn't even always working so she ran some labwork which came back abnormal. My FSH:LH ratio wasn't right and my testosterone was like that of a bodybuilder.

THE RE: She was actually worried I had some type of tumor at this point, so she sent me to my infertility doc (Dr. Haas). He immediately diagnosed me with PCOS based on my labs/amenorrhea and then did an ultrasound showing 100's of cysts on my ovaries. Not so good. It was at this point that I realized something really wasn't okay with me. Hard thing to accept. I left the infertility clinic knowing that my life had just changed dramatically. Up until now, I kept waiting for someone to say "oh you're fine, you don't belong here."

THE MEDS: We proceeded to try metformin by itself for 3 months which did not work, I had a normal hysterosalpingogram (OUCH), and we moved on to clomid. After 5 rounds of clomid and zero ovulation, we had the "this-isn't-working" talk. I really didn't see that coming. Clomid works for so many people, I just knew I'd be one of them.

THE MONITORING: Seeing an infertility doc is a very time consuming and financially/emotionally draining experience. Their clinic staff is so kind and he was wonderful, but it is a tough road. We went in at least twice a month, but many months it was even 2-3 times per week for ultrasounds, labwork, etc. It got to the point where I was about ready to wear tear-away pants for my vaginal ultrasounds to save time and we were choosing the least bruised vein for blood draws.

MY SURGERY: But Dr. Haas gave us the option between injectibles or ovarian drilling surgery. I chose the surgery after much thought and many tears. I couldn't believe that so many doors were closing so quickly for us. The day of surgery (April 29), the last thing I remember before falling asleep is my doctor holding my hand and whispering to me that he'd get me my Christmas baby.

HOSPITALIZATION: I ended up developing a uterine infection 3 days post-op and was admitted to the hospital for 3 days. After lots of IV antibiotics, CT scans, and ultrasounds, I was well enough to go home. Amazingly, my period came 4 weeks later and was regular after that!

AARON'S SURGERY: We found out that Aaron had a varicocele, so we tried an IUI that was unsuccessful. How do you get unlucky enough to fall into not only the 10% of couples with infertility, but also the 20% of those who both have issues??? He chose to have the repair done to fix it. Turns out I was pregnant when he had the surgery. No wonder I was loving the flaming hot cheetos from the vending machine!

THE MISCARRIAGE: We were so thrilled to finally be pregnant, but when we went for our 6 week ultrasound, there was no embryo (called a blighted ovum). It was the single most crushing thing that has ever happened to me. Seeing that empty screen on the day that was supposed to be one of my best ever was terrible. Again, I rode down that elevator in tears with a broken heart.

THE BABY: Fortunately, we were able to get pregnant again just 6 weeks after my D&C. We were terrified this time that history would repeat itself. I cried for no reason and worried with no cause. Thankfully, this baby has been a fighter and things have went wonderfully. It's been a fairly easy pregnancy and I'm loving every single second. We don't know the gender because it simply doesn't matter. We know it's a baby and for that, we are eternally grateful!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

My, what strong legs you have...

Aaron completed his 4th straight OKC Memorial Marathon today! He ran the half-marathon (13.1 miles) in 2 hours, 6 minutes. That's his best time yet and I'm SOOO proud of him. He actually even looked fine after the race like he could have went farther.

The picture below was when he passed the State Capitol. It was between miles 3 and 4.
Here's the three of us after the race. My shirt says "Future Runner Just Like Daddy". And my sweet husband was considerate enough that even after running 13 miles, he brought me a bottle of water and an orange juice before getting himself anything. He says he didn't want me to get sick. :)
Maybe you're saying, where's the picture of him crossing the finish line? Oh, let me tell you... he came in earlier than I anticipated and I got so excited that I fell off the bleachers I was watching from. Even though I popped back up really quickly, it wasn't enough time to get the camera ready. :)
Next year, we're both planning on running the half-marathon. I skipped out last year because I thought it might just interfere with trying to get pregnant. Let me tell you what interferes with not getting pregnant- no ovulation, crazy hormone levels, and hundreds of ovarian cysts. Turns out it wasn't running...
So, hopefully my Mom can bring little Gil to cheer us on. And hopefully this time my digestive system doesn't go into crisis mode on the way back to our car after the race... (long, gross story- trust me on this one, you don't want to eat mexican food the night before a big run...)

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Life Lesson

Gil and I are doing great. Lots of movement, belly is growing, weight is heading upwards... Oh, and I've even been sleeping better at night finally. Which I also realize will soon be ending again with the 3rd trimester closing in and then a newborn entering our lives. :) So, I'm savoring it while I can. The reflux has gotten lots better and my heart is even obeying by staying a good rate most of the time.

I am mostly posting today to let you all in on a little lesson I learned tonight. DO NOT DROP NAIL POLISH IN YOUR BATHROOM!!! It will shatter into a million pieces, splattering hot pink (the only color worth wearing) polish ALL over the walls, door, and tile floor. Not to mention your legs and feet (somehow missing my toenails...)

After Aaron and I scrubbed the mess up, it looks decent in there. If we just repaint one wall, re-grout the tile, and eliminate that door. And dang-it, I loved that color. Aaron offered to replace it but says I have to use it in Wal-mart's parking lot and not bring it home.

So, please keep a good grasp on nail polish bottles while indoors. That crap is dangerous. Don't say you haven't been warned...

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Random Thoughts...

I want to thank my friend, Vicki, for making me this adorable shirt!!! I had actually bought materials to make my own this weekend and hadn't gotten around to it. I'm glad I didn't because she did a much better job than I would have and this shirt is SO soft. (Plus it's stretchy, which is a must-have with this rapid growth.)I went to lunch with my friends from PA school today and it's really excititing because 4 out of 7 are pregnant right now. We're all really close together (from 14-28 weeks along) so we'll have a great play-group with our little ones!

Next, the back pain is still pretty bad. It's better when I'm lying down, but never goes away. Even after a weekend of doing little, it hurts about the same. Thank you, Catie, for giving me hope that it could actually go away before this pregnancy is over. Aches and pains annoy me because I don't like anything to take away from bonding with this baby! But I've gotten to feel lots of movement this weekend, so it's all worth it!!!

Last, but certainly not least, I want to say a couple of things about one of my fellow bloggers. Her name is Sonya at On (In)fertile Ground. She is currently 24 weeks pregnant with quads and has the most positive spirit of anyone I've ever met. Obviously it is a high-risk pregnancy, yet she has faced it with the most determined and hopeful attitude. She is truly an inspiration to those dealing with infertility and pregnancy in general.

She is on full bed-rest and has been for 5 weeks now, which is difficult enough in itself. But to endure the physical and emotional stress that she has been given is quite a task. Yet, she always finds time to post sweet comments on my blog as well as others. I find it so incredibly thoughtful that someone going through so much would take the time to reach out to others and offer encouragement. Plus, you all need to check out the pictures of her adorable belly. This girl rocks a belly full of babies better than I've ever imagined!

Her babies have reached the "viable" point and each day they grow stronger and healthier. Sonya, I just think the world of you and pray continuously for you and your sweet babies. Keep up the great work!

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Stupid back pain

I was having excruciating back pain yesterday at work (I work on my feet all day) so I called my OB's office for suggestions to try over the weekend. Well, being on the cautious side, they were worried about it being a sign of premature labor so they had me come in immediately.

I left my patient's waiting for me after quickly explaining and headed 10 minutes away to our downtown office. While waiting for my ultrasound, it occurred to me that something could be wrong. And my heart nearly crumbled. It was all too familiar of a feeling that in just a few minutes, I could be hearing what I got so used to... Bad news.

And let's face it, I can't imagine losing this baby. It's hard to even type those words because it's so painful to think about. Gil is my whole world and everything I do all day centers around him. I try to sleep well so that he/she is rested, I eat good food so he/she is nourished, I work so that I may support him/her.

Good news is everything looks great. Gil is already up to 1 pound, 1 ounce which is nearly double what the weight was 3 weeks ago!!! Gil is measuring a full week ahead of schedule on all measurements and once again the tech had NO problem telling the gender so I had to look away. If I wanted to know the gender, this baby would keep those legs crossed. But not my secret baby!!!

Oh, and my amniotic fluid level is really good and my cervix is very long and tightly closed! SO, turns out I really do just have killer back pain that I'm going to deal with. Hopefully it doesn't get any worse... I had a hard time making it through work yesterday.

Of course they suggested tylenol but I still haven't taken any this pregnancy, so I'm not going to start now. My metformin is enough medication for one pregnancy! I am using the heating pad which helps a lot and trying to rest a lot this weekend. If Gil would just stop kicking and punching my spinal column, I might be okay! Who knew you could feel so incredibly wonderful and so terribly awful all at the same time???

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

21 weeks: Someone's Getting BIG

21 weeks...

Gil and I are doing well. So well in fact, that I feel like I'm growing larger every single day. How big is this baby??? I have to admit I'm getting a little nervous that this little tyke is working on some kind of world record and I'm not sure how this is going to work out...

And more importantly, how long is this tank top going to work out? Finch totally called it when she asked how much longer I could wear the striped one and boy was she right. I busted right on out of that one. My new friend below might not stick around long either. :(

If this grosses anyone out, blame my cousin Catie. She requested 21-week belly pics and I can't stand to disappoint her! Tell me what you think- I'm getting some pretty kickin' curves about now, so I think I may be about ready to try out for Playboy. :)

If anyone wonders what the view is like from up here, this is it. My toes are barely peeking out from behind that belly. I can still paint them thank goodness, but soon it won't matter. I won't be able to see how ugly they look!
Congrats to Kate and Katie (fellow bloggers) on finding out that they're having baby boys!!!

This week has been by far my favorite since I started really feeling the baby move a lot. I feel it mostly in the evenings when I'm sitting down or lying on my back. Yea, yea... I know....I'm not supposed to lay on my back. But unless someone inserts spikes into my back to prevent me from rolling onto it at night, it's going to happen. I actually decided it would be easier to have a cardiologist relocate my blood vessels to the side so that I won't restrict blood flow!
I'm currently wedging myself between two body pillows and yet when I wake up, I've somehow maneuvered onto my back on top of one of the pillows and the other is now tangled up between my knees. But then I look at my nightstand and feel so joyful that my thermometer and charts are GONE that I don't even mind the trouble sleeping! Of course they're replaced by a doppler, ultrasound gel, and belly butter...

Sunday, April 11, 2010

We're going on a Cruise!!!

After much thought on the matter, we have decided to go on the cruise. I really appreciate all of your advice on the matter and I'm glad to hear that so many of you are traveling out-of-the-country even later than I will be. My doctor has given me the thumbs up since my pregnancy isn't high-risk. Even though it's hard to convince myself of that considering what we've been through.

So, I booked it with the travel agent tonight. We did put insurance on it for the 1st time ever just in case we need to cancel. Even though it's only 4 weeks away.

We are leaving from Orlando, Florida. We stop in CocoCay, Bahamas; St. Thomas, Virgin Islands; and St. Marteen, Netherlands Antilles. I'm REALLY excited to go to the last two (I've been to CocoCay) and I'm excited for Aaron to go on a cruise since he's never been.

Oh, and I've finally been feeling little Gil move around a ton this weekend. (S)he kicked hard enough that Aaron even felt it this morning! What an incredible feeling. I am continuously reminded how blessed I am to be incubating this sweet little baby.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

To travel or not to travel?

I need advice here. My husband and I LOVE to travel. We go on several trips a year and love to go on beach/sun/water type trips.

We would really like to go somewhere in the next 4-6 weeks before this little person joins us. I think it would be good for us to get away and enjoy time together. Plus, I could really use a break from work.

But, I'm really nervous about travel. I obviously won't go anywhere past 28 weeks. Our travel agent (who is awesome) has given us a couple of suggestions of destinations in the U.S. we could go to.

One is San Diego and we could go to Sea World which I think is super fun. Another choice (my husband is leaning towards) is a cruise to the U.S. Virgin Islands. Now, the good thing would be that if I needed medical care, both are U.S. and have great hospitals. However, my back is starting to HURT after being on my feet for long. And we'd be away from home.

For those that have already had kiddos or have made it to the 25-26 week point, do you feel like travel at that point would be enjoyable? What would you all do? Or does anyone have any other suggestions on places to go?

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

20 weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let's be honest here... I never, ever dreamed that I'd be writing a 20-week-post. Even 10 weeks ago, this seemed like a crazy goal. But yet here I am... and I'm thrilled about it! So forgive me for posting a photo shoot of my enlarging belly and almost bragging about the fact that I'm pregnant. I'm just kinda shocked to be here and I'm so appreciative that I am. This belly signifies everything that I've worked so hard for over the past 2 years. It erases so many of the tears and replaces them with joy.

The road we took to get here will forever be a huge part of who I am and who I will be as a mother. And it has made me cherish every single second of this pregnancy. Who knows if I will ever be given this opportunity again? I'm going to soak this up as much as possible!

So, without further ado, here's my naked belly in all its ever-enlarging glory.

Gosh, I just wish I'd start to show... :)

I had to switch to a new tank top this week due to the fact that the old one will no longer meet up with my shorts. Kinda trashy if I do say so myself.

This is my Where's Waldo top, as Aaron likes to call it. I told him I think he's just jealous because I get to carry Baby Gil and he doesn't. :)

This is Gil's first Easter picture. Doesn't he/she look adorable???
By the way, I was asked recently in my comments about where we came up with the nickname Gil. Our infertility doc has the first name Gilbert, so we only thought it fitting that while in utero we would call our sweet baby, Gil, in honor of the man who worked so hard to give us this amazing gift. He was the best doctor I've ever met and gave us the most incredible thing in the world!
Reflux is still kicking my butt, sleep is not all that easy for me since I always end up on my back no matter how many body pillows I wedge between, and I've gained 8 pounds so far. My lower back is starting to hurt when I've worked on my feet all day and I require a lot more rest than before. But those are such petty things compared to what's going on in there. And I've made it to the halfway-point!!!

Monday, April 5, 2010

Kick, Baby, Kick

Dear Baby Gil,

I do appreciate that you are giving your mommy peace and quiet and resting like a good baby. However, I've been VERY anxiously awating those little kicks of yours for several weeks now. I've felt a couple of bubbles and one good movement that seemed like you were rolling over in there. But guess what?

That's it.

And I'm still not positive any of it was actually you. So, I worked really, really hard to get you in there and I'd LOVE the reassurance of feeling you move around. Of course hearing your heartbeat every night is great, but let's get a little more motivated in there! I can't wait to complain about how much you hurt my ribs or stomp on my bladder. Come on, little one, kick me as hard as you can every now and then just to remind me that you're in there!!!


Saturday, April 3, 2010

Nice Breasts... Now what do I do with them???

I would like to start by thanking Little Gil for giving Mommy such wonderful new breasts. Very sweet gift and I love them! I'm kinda upset that I haven't always had these delightful curves...

The problem is that my bras hurt. Not just a little uncomfortable, but kinda painful. So I tried on bras today and realized that I couldn't even fit in the next cup size either. (I have to admit though that I wanted to proudly walk out and tell the sales lady that I couldn't fit in the 34C...)

So, my question for all of you who have experienced this sudden "enhancement", how much did your milking station grow during pregnancy and when did you have most of the growth?

For instance, if you grew 2 cup sizes, did you do this during a certain part of pregnancy? My reason for asking is I don't want to go buying larger bras if I'm only going to outgrow those in a couple of months too. I'd like to know what size these bad boys are going to get so I can plan accordingly. And in case it matters, I'm going to try to breastfeed which we need to further discuss in a future post. There was a lot of thought that went in to that decision!

So, any advice/help would be greatly appreciated!!!