Amber and Aaron

Amber and Aaron

The Fun We've Already Had...

  • Graham Tomas born July 31 at 5:04 P.M. weighing 8 lbs, 12 oz.
  • December 2, 2011: PREGNANT!!!
  • Paisley Kate arrived August 21 at 5:38 P.M. weighing 7 lbs, 9 oz
  • DUE DATE: August 25, 2010!!!
  • Dec. 14, 2009- PREGNANT!!!
  • Oct. 07,2009- Had elective D&C.
  • Sept 28, 2009- No embryo on ultrasound. :(
  • Sept 15th, 2009- We found out we're PREGNANT!!!
  • Sept '09- Aaron had varicocele repair.
  • July '09- IUI #1 with HCG shot= No such luck
  • April '09- Ovarian drilling surgery, followed by hospitalization for uterine infection
  • Jan-Mar '09- metformin + 3 rounds of clomid= no ovulation
  • Dec. 11, 2008- Hysterosalpingogram (Fancy word for shooting dye through the ovaries. OUCH)
  • Nov '08- Sent to RE. Tried metformin alone for two months (No ovulation)
  • Oct '08- Diagnosed with PCOS based on amenorrhea and crazy hormone levels.
  • June '08- Aaron convinced me to start trying.
  • June '04- Got Hitched!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Baby Numero Dos?

Even while I was pregnant with Paisley, I had already started contemplating having a 2nd child.  Which is crazy for several reasons.  1.)  I was huge pregnant during the HOT summer months.  2.) I grew up an only child and always thought I'd also want an only child.  3.) We'd actually started to think we'd never even have one, so 2 was crazy talk.

My pregnancy was such a great experience, and even her delivery wasn't too bad.  However, my first 6 weeks as a new mom were EXHAUSTING. I didn't get any sleep, and felt like I might just die from feeling overwhelmed.  I'm not quite sure if it's as bad with a 2nd child, or maybe if it's even worse.  And who knows if I might get a 2nd baby who actually does like to sleep more than a few hours a day.  And is willing to be put down every now and then (that's the sound of Paisley gasping in the background at the thought.)  But how could I manage with a toddler in the house?  And I know traveling would be easier with one.  And we can afford to do more with just her...

Then the other side of me says, I can't imagine never feeling a baby move inside of me again. Or watching my belly grow larger every week with a tiny human (rather than just too much food.)  I want to get out her newborn clothes again and put them on a new baby.  I'm not ready to sell her tiny baby things and move on to big girl stuff.  And maybe she'd be happier with a sibling.  I know I always wanted one when I was little.  Now I think the idea is ridiculous and realize how much more attention I got being an only!  *Side note: I came from a poor family though, so I didn't end up spoiled rotten with expensive stuff.  In fact, I've never owned a brand-name purse and have no desire to, frequently buy things only on sale/clearance, and own fewer hair products than my husband.*

Back to my point...  I want whatever is best for Paisley.  I don't want a new baby to steal my time from her.  She and I have developed an amazing relationship.  And yet I don't want her to be lonely either.  I grew up with 13 cousins so I felt like I had siblings.  She's the only kiddo on either side of the family.  My husband has 2 siblings and had a lot of fun growing up with them.

And the craziest part is that all of this may not even be up to us.  I may not ever be able to get pregnant again.  Or I may have more miscarriages.  It took us 2 years and a whole lot of medical intervention to have her.  And maybe that's why I can't commit either way.  I'm not willing to pour my heart into this again if it won't ever happen.  Infertility has controlled our lives for too long.  And I am SO thankful that we were able to have this amazing baby at the end, but we may not be so lucky again.  I can't go through another 2 years of crying myself to sleep after yet another failed month.  I don't want to take my temps every morning, keep a chart on my nightstand and pee on LH tests every day.  But I'm not ready to close this chapter of my life either. 

(For those curious, I haven't had a period yet since having her which could very likely be due to nursing, but in the back of my mind- I have to wonder if it's my PCOS again.  Was it my metformin that made me ovulate?  Did the surgeries only work for a little while?  Will I ever be able to carry another baby anyway?  My RE was interested to see if I'd ovulate again after having her, so I guess we'll find out eventually.)

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Vegas Baby!!!

Checking out New York-New York from our hotel window.
 We had a great time in Vegas and Paisley was perfect!  I have to admit I was VERY concerned that she might cause a bit of trouble (aka "ruin the trip"), but I am so happy to report that she made it so much more fun!
She peed on my mom's bed twice during this trip while having naked time.  :)
 The flight there went really well.  She nursed and fell asleep before takeoff, and then slept through the entire 2.5 hour flight.  Luckily, it was a direct flight which made it really easy!  On the way home, she nursed again on takeoff but stayed awake the entire flight.  Thank goodness there were three of us to keep her busy, so she did great playing with toys/ tearing up the sky mall magazine/ eating snacks...
Big gambler!  We spent exactly $0 on gambling which means we came out even!  She loved hanging out with her Aunt Emily and shopping!
 We went for Aaron's vet conference so 4 of our vet school friends went too which was super fun.  She enjoyed all of the attention she got being the only kiddo in the group.  I couldn't believe how good she was about being busy ALL day every day we were there.  We would wake up, eat breakfast, go shopping while Aaron was in class, then run around all day until bedtime.  She took a couple of naps in her stroller, but otherwise was awake and loving it!
Having a little mommy time

Reading her free copy of the Sky Mall magazine, wishing she could buy some breast milk.
 She didn't necessarily love her hotel crib so she'd wake me up in the middle of the night and coerce me into letting her sleep with me.  Which let's face it, I love to snuggle with this sweet baby so it doesn't take much to convince me.  Now we're back home and I'm already missing her being next to me.
Checking out the aquariums at Rainforest Cafe with her dad
 We went to Tournament of Kings one night which was great.  We ate a delicious meal with our hands, and watched a fun show with lots of action.  Paisley would watch the horses intently and even like the fireworks at the end which I wouldn't have guessed. 
Posing in her adorable new Vegas showgirl outfit
So, what I learned from this experience is that our traveling days are not over!  We've just got a new travel buddy.  And it's amazing how the little things I failed to take time to appreciate before, she makes me see in a whole new light.  YAY for my little traveler!  Next stop: Mexico in June!!!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Where have I been???

Since becoming a mom, I've learned that time doesn't move the same as it did before.  It seems that it has sped up tremendously to the point that at the end of the day, I can't imagine how it's already time for bed.  And I can't see that I got anything done!  I always wish I just had an extra hour to do the housework, or even better- to sleep.  The dogs don't get as much attention as they deserve.  And no matter how much time I spend with Paisley, I beg for a few minutes more.

So, I'm not going to make excuses as to why I've been a terrible blogger lately.  You've all heard them before.  What I am going to do is catch you up on life around here.

Paisley has entered a very active phase.  She is so close to crawling it's crazy, and never just sits contently anymore.  Suddenly, she doesn't like to play in her jumperoo or exersaucer for more than 10 minutes and is insisting on lots of mommy time.  While I love that, it's exhausting.  By the end of the day, I've been drooled on, chewed on, wrestled, loved, hugged, pinched, hair-pulled, and patted to the point that I'm pooped out.  She requires a lot of attention and constant interaction.

Sleep has also become more challenging.  She no longer just falls asleep when it's time.  Suddenly, she fights me tooth and nail to get her down.  Once she's asleep, she stays asleep 7-8 hours overnight.  But the last few nights, I've had to let her cry it out for about 5 minutes until she'll go to sleep.  I would love to rock her, but she just won't go down like that anymore.  Naps are still totally hit or miss, but she usually falls asleep in the car. 

Loving the straw!
She loves fruits and veggies of pretty much all kinds.  And of course breastmilk.  We've been getting constipated lately, so I've introduced a sippy cup with water to keep things moving and it seems to be helping.  Plus, she thinks it's a lot of fun to use!   

Sleeping at Affair of the Heart while I ate my strawberry crepe (yum!)
And lastly, we leave for Las Vegas on Saturday and it will be her first plane trip!!!  For the first time in my life, I started packing earlier than the night before we leave.  She requires so much stuff.  But she LOVES exploring new places and being busy all day, so I'm pretty sure she's going to love it.  Fingers crossed we survive the almost 3 hour plane ride to get there...

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Mover and a Shaker

We've been blindsided here in Oklahoma with 2 nasty snowstorms in a week.  For those of you who don't live here, snow pretty much shuts our state down.  We have no idea how to deal with it or drive on it.  So, it's better to just stay home in warm sweats!  I'm super eager for summer time.  Cold weather is NOT my thing at all, and my flip-flops are dying to come out of the closet.

This week my mom started taking Paisley to a "Little Bug" gym class.  I kinda thought it sounded like a waste of time to be honest, but she REALLY enjoyed it.  And Paisley liked it too.  :)  There were only 2 other babies this week due to our ridiculous weather issues (I'm so over it), but they were all about the same age. 

 One of the things I found amazing is how different they all are in their development.  I never read the books about development and I don't worry about when they should be hitting their milestones.  I'm not too interested in comparing my baby to others, and I refuse to lay awake at night strategizing on how to make my baby smarter.  I did learn some of these things on my pediatric rotation, but I hardly remember since it was 4 years ago!

So, I was quite happy to see that she's actually a little ahead of the other kiddos in most areas.  She's much more alert and interested in her surroundings, and she's doing great with her motor skills.  This week she's scooting all the way across our floor and several times I've caught her pushing her adorable tushy up in the air into crawl mode. 
 Also this week, I realized she can drink out of a straw.  Who knew?  I had a fruit smoothie at the mall and she's always super interested in what I have, so I let her try to take a drink just to entertain her.  What I didn't expect is for her to immediately suck up a bunch of smoothie and drink it.  Probably not on the approved food list for a 5-month old, but she LOVED it!
Speaking of foods, she'll pretty much eat anything which you'd never guess by her tiny slender body.  I guess she isn't going to resemble a sumo wrestler like I did as a baby.  Maybe it had something to do with the fact that my mom fed me mashed potatoes on a regular basis...

Now, I'm a little ashamed of myself because I haven't been trying one food only for 5 days straight or anything to test for allergies.  In fact, I got really excited and started doing combos of fruits/veggies.  Good news is she doesn't appear to be allergic to anything at all, and she loves to eat!   Which I think must be from her mom, because I'm a huge fan of food.  :)

I have no idea why I went on an 8-day hiatus from blogging, but I'll try to be better.  I guess this little girl just keeps me busy!  I've been meaning to blog about having another baby and the internal debate I'm going through, but I'll save it for next time... 

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Picture Overload

Miss Paisley rockin' her skinny jeans

Loving my water bottle.  Maybe she realizes that I drink 3-4 of these a day to keep the milk supply up. And she loves fresh milk!

Enjoying a 70 degree day in January at the zoo

Our family at the zoo- plus a random child who wandered up.

My stylish fashionista protecting her retinas

Pooped out from a long day at the zoo.  Oh, and that is so not our Escalade.  I'm the Equinox parked next to it!
Life just keeps getting more and more fun with her.  She's smiling more, giggles spontaneously, and interacts all the time.  She loved watching the animals at the zoo and would squeal with delight when they'd come close.  Of course she wasn't too impressed with the goats in the petting zoo since she has one of her own! 

As I type this, she's squirming all over my lap and when I just looked down at her, she grinned from ear to ear and whispered a sweet "goo" which I'm pretty sure is baby talk for "I love you mom".  This little girl has me wrapped around her finger!