Amber and Aaron

Amber and Aaron

The Fun We've Already Had...

  • Graham Tomas born July 31 at 5:04 P.M. weighing 8 lbs, 12 oz.
  • December 2, 2011: PREGNANT!!!
  • Paisley Kate arrived August 21 at 5:38 P.M. weighing 7 lbs, 9 oz
  • DUE DATE: August 25, 2010!!!
  • Dec. 14, 2009- PREGNANT!!!
  • Oct. 07,2009- Had elective D&C.
  • Sept 28, 2009- No embryo on ultrasound. :(
  • Sept 15th, 2009- We found out we're PREGNANT!!!
  • Sept '09- Aaron had varicocele repair.
  • July '09- IUI #1 with HCG shot= No such luck
  • April '09- Ovarian drilling surgery, followed by hospitalization for uterine infection
  • Jan-Mar '09- metformin + 3 rounds of clomid= no ovulation
  • Dec. 11, 2008- Hysterosalpingogram (Fancy word for shooting dye through the ovaries. OUCH)
  • Nov '08- Sent to RE. Tried metformin alone for two months (No ovulation)
  • Oct '08- Diagnosed with PCOS based on amenorrhea and crazy hormone levels.
  • June '08- Aaron convinced me to start trying.
  • June '04- Got Hitched!

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Let's Be Honest: part two

The debut of Mommy Confessionals was such a hit that I felt strongly that we needed another installment. Your comments made me laugh and I really appreciate that one of my favorite blog friends commented three times...

What warms my heart is the fact that other women are willing to admit that they aren't cookie cutter perfect either. Facebook in particular can make a person crazy with all the ideal family pictures and cutesy patootsy comments about their children's accomplishments and adorableness. Seeing everyone else's Pinterest projects and hearing about the terrific homemade meals they've all conjured up in their domestic bliss makes me wanna poke my eyes out.

Sooo, thanks to each of you for playing along. It makes me feel "normal". And honestly, my kids are happy with their unperfect, nonscheduled, messy, chaotic and unstructured lives. We wouldn't want it any other way!

I am already racking up a list of confessions I have yet to reveal. Coming this week...

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

What it's really like to be a mom

Let me begin by saying that this very well doesn't apply to most of you. I know there are lots of moms who have it all together and do perfect little mommy things and love every minute of it. But then there are women like me. I know they're out there. Tired, walking around with awfully neglected hair and mysteriously stained clothes, wondering how they forgot to pack diapers yet again.

We'll just pretend this is the Mommy Confessional.

I have stood outside my car for several minutes in the pouring rain just to enjoy the silence for a moment before getting my screaming children out.

I have dumped turds into the toilet and then put a diaper back on my daughter when I forgot to pack any.

I have let my daughter leave the house wearing pink cowboy boots with orange sweatpants and a red shirt.

I have bribed my child with suckers.

I have let my babies co-sleep with us. Both of them at once on occasion. And I happen to love it.

I have mourned the loss of my life before kids. Often, I miss when we saw movies and slept and had quiet dinners without a little person on our laps.

I have blamed a bad mood on the stage they are currently in and failed to acknowledge a fever or other such illness until it is very obvious.

I have sent Lunchables with my daughter for lunch more often than not. And I serve non-organic fruits and veggies sometimes.

I have let my kids watch several hours of TV over the course of a day. This is my only quiet time considering our kids wake up when we do and stay up late. I tell myself that it has educational value.

I have never had a schedule for the kiddos. Not even sure where I'd start with that project.

I have forgotten to send my child a blanket to school for naps. She uses the "class blankie" which is fine by her since she isn't attached to anything.

I have let my child eat something she has dropped on our floor. We try to prevent this in public places to the best of our abilities.

I have taken my child to the mall even though she has been sick. Sometimes stir crazy gets the best of my judgement.

I have entirely neglected my husband. Maybe he still has needs and wants and wishes, but I am way too tired and overwhelmed to pay much attention. Poor guy. Hoping this can improve once the babies are a bit older and the boy quits nursing 24/7.

I have completely ignored milestone charts and growth charts. My kids are doing great thankyouverymuch. I am also not interested in playing "compare our kids."

I have wished that I had a bathroom in a child proofed fort surrounded by alligators and guarded by the marines so I could just enjoy a kid free bath once in a blue moon. Ditto for the toilet. I do not need a teeny voice announcing what bodily functions I am taking care of at the moment.

Anyone have anything else they'd like to get off their chest?

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Captcha schmaptcha

Am I the only person who apparently cannot read the ridiculous letters and numbers on captcha? You know the ones that you have to enter to leave a message on certain blogs or buy concert tickets or enter other secure sites.

Pretty sure it would be easier for me to buy a plane ticket to fly halfway across the planet to hand deliver my message I want to leave or pick up the tickets I want.

I mean, didn't they used to be actual words that could be read? Now it's like aPcoo94yuv. Except it's all slanty and run together. I shouldn't be confused about whether it's a lower case q or an upper case W. They are entirely different letters.

They whole thing makes me think maybe I am the hacker they're trying to keep out...

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Viva Las Vegas

We had an excellent trip to Vegas and the kids were so good! It was great having my mom and Aaron around all the time to help out. I got to enjoy the kids more instead of being so busy trying to do it all alone.

They both were great on the flights save for a 2 minute fit Paisley threw on the way there regarding the complete disgust that she would have to sit in her OWN seat during landing with the seatbelt on. GASP!!

But they both slept the whole way home and had a great time there. We all went to tournament of kings and mom took Paisley to the Blue Man group. We shopped and went to Siegfried and Roy's magic garden and an awesome aquarium. We got to go to the Adventuredome and Paisley was tall enough to ride a lot of rides now, which my little daredevil was excited about! I am happy to say we all survived without any incidents...

Friday, February 15, 2013


Just to answer a few questions left on my previous few posts:

1.) We do have another vet who fills in for us while we're away. He is actually the one who built the practice back in 1982 so he knows everything there is to know on how to run it. He even still works for us on Wednesdays so we can get that day off since we work on Saturday. Plus, he was my family vet growing up which is an extra bonus.

2.) The two kid thing. Yep, hardest thing I've ever done. My heart is sooo torn all the time. It's every single day that I'm nursing Graham and Paisley says in the sweetest little voice, "play with me"... Try to tell her no. You'd have to be the world's suckiest human being.

So I try my hardest but at this point I feel like Graham gets 75% and she gets 25%. And I hate that. Yeah, my mom and Aaron fill in the gaps by playing extra hat with her but I miss US!!!

Thanks for all the support on my previous post. Misery loves company and it turns out I'm not alone... :)

3.) Swim diapers are R-I-D-I-C-U-L-O-U-S!!! I trusted that they would hold in urine because why wouldn't they. But they DO NOT, I can assure you. We found this out while at a very nice dinner in the formal dining area of our cruise ship. Hmm, why is liquid streaming down our child's leg? Ohhhhhh....

And then again in the Dominican while we were having lunch in the outdoor cafe and urine came streaming from her swimsuit onto the wonderfully loud tile floor. This wasn't my first rodeo so I just slipped a pool towel beneath her and pretended nothing was happening....

Travel time

Well, I may have officially went bonkers. And if I haven't yet, I probably will by the end of this week. We are going on our first trip with BOTH kids.

We've traveled a lot with just Paisley and it has actually been smooth sailing minus the whole Diaper Crisis of 2011 you may or may not remember. The moral of that story is that cruise ships do NOT think that any parents on board would be stupid enough to not pack plenty of diapers. Therefore, they do not sell them anywhere. Also learned that swim diapers are not a good alternative as they do not hold in urine AT ALL. Lots of good info from that experience.

In fact, I joked that if we had been the unlucky people stuck on this latest cruise ship, we would be screwed. Our diaper supply would have ran out many days ago and the amount of bath towels we'd be using as diapers would be astonishing.

Anyways, tomorrow we board a direct flight for Las Vegas to go to my husband's annual vet conference for 5 days. An Paisley is super excited. She loves that our luggage is out (although mostly still empty) and she likes to talk about going in the big airplane to Viva Las Vegas. So cute.

Graham should be good because, well, he always is. So I pray this will be no different. Big change this time is that she gets her own seat for the first time and he is now here too. Lots of luck and snacks will be needed while making this journey.

Monday, February 11, 2013

Balancing Act

Am I the only one who is struggling to find some sort of balance in my life? I feel like I am constantly searching for the recipe for harmony while struggling to be a loving wife, attentive mother, and somewhat elusive office manager. And to think that I would still like to work as a PA part time again!!!

The days just feel like I'm juggling. I want more down time to just enjoy my sweet kids and talk to my neglected husband and maybe even play with my forgotten dogs! But it seems like from the moment my head leaves the pillow, I am rushing to keep things in order. And even then, I feel like I fail.

There are diapers to change, meals to eat, naps to take, baths to conquer, clothes to pick out, hair to fix (Paisley's, never mine), laundry to do, dishes to wash, a baby to nurse, toys to pick up, etc.... The list is never ending.

And then to split my time fairly is a whole other issue. Paisley is at an amazing age. And she loves to tell me stories and play and pretend. And when she was the only one, I felt that I was keeping up. But now I feel constantly torn over which bambino needs my attention MORE at that moment. And I fall asleep every night missing her.

I miss the focus being on just one. I feel sad when I watch her relationship grow stronger with my husband and my mom and feel her slip away from me. And I know it's tough right now. Graham is only breastfed and refuses bottles like they will kill him on the spot. And she isn't jealous towards him at all. But as an only child, the whole sibling thing is so strange of a concept.

So, I pray that one day my babies can both strengthen their individual relationships with me and that my time can seem more equal. And it would be incredible if my husband and I did more than high five as we rush past each other on the way to take care of the current child duty. Every once in a while we get the chance to laugh at something silly Paisley does.

How do you balance the circus at your house??? Do you feel that you are managing well?

My angels

These two kids make my heart happy!!!

Sunday, February 3, 2013

The Beauty of an Independent toddler

I give Paisley a hard time on here because I love telling the funny stories about her being stubborn or awful. But it isn't really fair to spread the bad side all over the Internet without also sharing the good.

Paisley may be stubborn and somewhat difficult to manage at times but she is also incredibly funny. She now knows she's humorous and will laugh openly at herself. She likes to call us silly names like "giraffe ears" or "poopy mess". She is ornery and silly. We love to make goofy faces at each other, chase dada through the house and make games out of everything we do.

The girl is amazing in restaurants. She will sit in her own chair (no high chairs for this diva), and keep herself mostly entertained throughout an hour long meal.

She loves to be on the go. We are out and about more than we are home and she behaves very well. Once we get in the car. You all know how much she likes that. We've taken her to Vegas twice, Mexico, Dominican Republic and a cruise so far and she has been perfect on every trip and flight.

She loves to snuggle still and drink her "mo". She likes to dance and sing songs with us including "big ones" which means we have to use a weird creepy voice. Her favorites are "Gangnam style" and "Rudolph", which makes her super well-rounded. :)

She loves bathtime and splashing 75% of the water on the floor. She insists on sleeping with both a blanket and a towel in her crib. She likes brushing her teeth and "getting the bugs out",

When she needs extra or additional of something, she asks for "more-some".
Her language is exploding right now and she is super chatty. She is very opinionated on which shoes she wants to wear and feels pretty in dresses already.

The kid already appreciates lip gloss and having her toe nails painted. She can charm the socks off even the grumpiest client at the clinic and believes that all animals are wonderful.

I could go on about my amazing girl for an eternity, but the point here is that I wouldn't trade her sassiness for anything. Thank goodness Graham is laid back though...