Well, I get to start doing my ovulation predictor tests (OPT's) tomorrow morning which is just thrilling. I figured out that each test costs me about $5.00 which makes me a little nauseated to think about. Let's just stick with the annoying temperature chart. I can print those off at the cost of a tiny bit of ink and my thermometer is already paid off. :)
So, I'm about to get a little less sleep and a little more to do this week. And when we do see a change indicating ovulation is headed our way, I'll be going back in to see the doc. Another pelvic, more bloodwork, the loss of even more dignity and self-respect. I figured out that I have seen the dr. 13 times over the past 7 months and that doesn't count my surgery or subsequent hospitalization during which I saw a lot of him! I've lost count of the number of blood draws, pelvic exams, and other fun that I never knew I'd get to experience so much of.
And the sad part is... I don't even go nearly as much as some girls going through this. I feel stupid for even complaining about it when I read other blogs. But I also know that it's my future if my uterus doesn't get in line soon. IVF isn't a walk in the park!!!
On a totally different note: Renna, one of Mendy's twin girls, will be having her heart surgery tomorrow morning. I'm sure everything will go perfectly, but some prayers and positive thoughts can't hurt anything. I'll update you on that as soon as I hear anything. They're such precious little babies!!!
So, I'm about to get a little less sleep and a little more to do this week. And when we do see a change indicating ovulation is headed our way, I'll be going back in to see the doc. Another pelvic, more bloodwork, the loss of even more dignity and self-respect. I figured out that I have seen the dr. 13 times over the past 7 months and that doesn't count my surgery or subsequent hospitalization during which I saw a lot of him! I've lost count of the number of blood draws, pelvic exams, and other fun that I never knew I'd get to experience so much of.
And the sad part is... I don't even go nearly as much as some girls going through this. I feel stupid for even complaining about it when I read other blogs. But I also know that it's my future if my uterus doesn't get in line soon. IVF isn't a walk in the park!!!
On a totally different note: Renna, one of Mendy's twin girls, will be having her heart surgery tomorrow morning. I'm sure everything will go perfectly, but some prayers and positive thoughts can't hurt anything. I'll update you on that as soon as I hear anything. They're such precious little babies!!!
What OPT are you doing that it costs $5.00 each time you do it? That is really expensive!
ReplyDeleteIt was a specialty one that came from my infertility mail pharmacy. I guess my RE doesn't like most of them since PCOS makes them really inaccurate. Nothing's ever easy!
ReplyDeleteIf I missed it somewhere, I apologize but I'm wondering if you've tried IUI yet? A close girlfriend of mine and a blogger just had a son (Ben - super cute) and she suffered from PCOS. Clomid did NOT work for her and she moved on to injectible meds and did an IUI. It worked girl! It CAN work!!! It DOES work often! I know it's hard to imagine, it still is for me, but you will get to the end of this hellish ride. The one thing I believed was that by the time I got off, I'd be at peace with everything. I didn't feel that way all the time, but I had to believe it or I wouldn't have made it. Blogging also really helped me. It saved me actually. I felt so alone before I found all these other women - different problems, but all wanting the same outcome.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I'm glad that my story gives you some hope. I always kept a few "pregnant" bloggers on my blogroll, just to help me remember WHY I was going through all of this crap. Sending you much luck.