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Warning: This Post is so sweet it may give you a toothache

Buckle your seatbelts, friends. I'm having that rare feeling where I want to say nice things. Doesn't happen often, so try to soak it up. The regular Amber will return and I'll be making fun of you all again in the next breath.

I just got to thinking today (my Wednesday activity) about how many things I have to be thankful for. Seems like all I do is whine about how poor ol' me has to deal with this infertility business. Let's face it- it's not fun, but it could be worse. And the reason it isn't that bad is because I have the most awesome support system ever!!! So I'd like to take a moment to point out the things I have been blessed with.

Dr. Haas- what an incredible doctor. Not only is he a genius at what he does, he has shown compassion, kindness, and dedication to us for the past 9 months. He held my hand and comforted me before surgery, he called me and visited me a ton while I was in the hospital, and he has led us through this by giving us the knowledge to make our decisions.

Our health- for the most part, we are incredibly healthy people. Made the diagnosis of infertility all the more shocking, but we could be dealing with so many other health conditions.

Our friends- I can't even begin to name all of the people who have sent me encouraging e-mails and letters, called me, visited me, offered me their eggs or uterus, etc. I've had people around through all of the tough times: surgery, ER, hospitalization, days I got bad news... You have all proved to be even more wonderful than I ever expected.

My blog friends- I realize this overlaps with my other friends in a lot of ways, but there are a lot of people who I have met through doing this blog. I can't tell you how happy it makes me when someone new comments on my blog or signs up to be a follower. Just makes me feel not so alone. And I have loved following all of your blogs as well. Nice to know other people really do understand.

My mom- She has been my rock through my whole life. I can always count on her to be there and to do anything I need her to do. She wants a grandbaby more than anything, but would open her heart to whatever path we choose to get there. She supports my decisions wholeheartedly and loves me unconditionally. I want to have a relationship like this with my own child.

My husband- Not even sure where to start on this one. How in the world could I ask for someone better? He is truly my best friend and has been 100% involved in this whole process. He has went to countless doctor's visits only to look at an ultrasound of my empty uterus and cyst-loving ovaries. He has reminded me to take my meds and my temp in the morning. (I call it nagging). He has loved me through it all and never blamed me for any of this. I love him so much more than when this ever started. You never know what kind of husband you really have until you face something life-changing. Thank you so much, Aaron.

Alright, I'm about to dry heave from all of the sappiness. Point is: I'm going to try to have a better attitude from here on out. Don't hold me to it though, a girl is likely to change her mind.

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  1. What a sweet post! All of that makes the journey of infertility more bearable, huh? Just came across your blog and wanted to say hi. Infertility is a tough road to walk, but with God's guidance, there can be peace. :)

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  2. Ok so it may be my meds I'm on, but I'm overly emotional and I totally just cried at work reading this. It is nice to remember that life could be a lot worse even though this road is absolutely heart wrenching. Thank you for being there for me always. You are an amazing friend as well. I know I tell you this all the time but you guys are in my prayers every night. I don't know two people who deserve a baby more.

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  3. So I had a toothache prior to reading your post, and now it hurts like hell. Oh Amber...if at the end of the day all you ever had was your mom and Aaron you will have done quite well, my friend. Keep counting those blessings - often they are within remarkable reach.

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  4. Always good to count your blessings every now and then! Helps keep everything in perspective. :)

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  5. wow! glad you were back to your normal self yesterday...would have scared me a bit if you had met me at the door with open arms and tears in your eyes! =) Good to see you guys!

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