Amber and Aaron

Amber and Aaron

The Fun We've Already Had...

  • Graham Tomas born July 31 at 5:04 P.M. weighing 8 lbs, 12 oz.
  • December 2, 2011: PREGNANT!!!
  • Paisley Kate arrived August 21 at 5:38 P.M. weighing 7 lbs, 9 oz
  • DUE DATE: August 25, 2010!!!
  • Dec. 14, 2009- PREGNANT!!!
  • Oct. 07,2009- Had elective D&C.
  • Sept 28, 2009- No embryo on ultrasound. :(
  • Sept 15th, 2009- We found out we're PREGNANT!!!
  • Sept '09- Aaron had varicocele repair.
  • July '09- IUI #1 with HCG shot= No such luck
  • April '09- Ovarian drilling surgery, followed by hospitalization for uterine infection
  • Jan-Mar '09- metformin + 3 rounds of clomid= no ovulation
  • Dec. 11, 2008- Hysterosalpingogram (Fancy word for shooting dye through the ovaries. OUCH)
  • Nov '08- Sent to RE. Tried metformin alone for two months (No ovulation)
  • Oct '08- Diagnosed with PCOS based on amenorrhea and crazy hormone levels.
  • June '08- Aaron convinced me to start trying.
  • June '04- Got Hitched!

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Move over Heidi Klum...

We went to Target yesterday for Princess Paisley's first photo shoot and it took a little effort.... They were running behind when we got there with our very asleep baby and by the time they were ready for us, she was ready to eat. So they got her naked photos done with her eyes open, but then we had to go nurse before she would fall asleep for the rest.

They turned out great though and I actually almost cried when they were taking them because 1. she's the cutest baby on the planet and 2. I'm a little more emotional with her than I've ever been before and 3. my hormones are CRAZY!!!

Crazy to think that we're actually a FAMILY now!!!




Look at that fat belly!

I love her expression.



This is my favorite shot! It was quite difficult to get because we don't have the tiniest baby, people. Might be a little more manageable with a 6 pounder...



I got in trouble because I forgot to wear/bring my wedding ring... Look, it's all I can do these days to remember to brush my teeth and put on pants. So we just had Aaron's.






Sleeping is still going excellent with her in our bed. She's sleeping 4-5 hours at a time and cuddles so sweet! I wake her up for her evening meals so it will be great to see how long she can sleep when I don't have to wake her to eat. (Although there is really interesting programming on at 3 am) And I absolutely adore waking up to see her sweet little face. She has the cutest bedhead hair when she wakes up.

Oh, and I haven't mentioned it on here yet but nipple shields have saved my life!!! I had a friend bring me one earlier this week and it has made things so much better. She loves "leftie", but does not want to latch on to the right. With the shield, she latches right on and eats for a LONG time. Only problem with the shield is that it is usually really full of milk when she decides to rip it off and fling milk everywhere! And I know there are lots of opinions about these, but I'm telling you- my right breast feels SO much better now that I'm using it because it actually gets emptied. LOVE the shields!!!

Friday, August 27, 2010

Motherhood

I re-read my last post or two and thought I should add in some side notes. I make it sound like this is the easiest thing I've ever done in my life, which would be FAR from true. It's definitely the most challenging thing in my life, but it's worth every second. Here's what I've learned so far about being a mom:
  • There is no longer time in the day for a shower. I realized last night that it had been 3 days and that DHS would come and take my baby away if they realized how dirty I was...
  • Sometimes I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. We kinda take a poll amongst ourselves and decide on what we think works best. She should have come with an instruction guide!
  • My perineum hurts like crazy from my episiotomy. I slid in a puddle of water 2 days ago and thought I'd ripped it all open. OUCH!!! So, it's been a bit sore since then. And thanks for putting me on vaginal rest for 6 weeks, I SOOO wouldn't have thought to do so myself... :)
  • It is possible to use the restroom and hold a baby at the same time and sometimes it's necessary. The hard part is how to wash your hands afterwards. Verdict is still out on that one.
  • Sleeping was a beautiful part of my life. It will never be the same. I now have to wake up to check on her throughout the night, even though she is fine. However, we slept 6 hours straight last night before I woke her up to feed her. And then I felt terribly guilty because I missed a feeding.
  • My breasts are HUGE. Like I went from a B to at least a D here. I'm so thankful I bought the voluptuous girl nursing bras from Motherhood Maternity because they even feel snug at this point.
  • Sometimes I have to change her clothes because I leak all over her while feeding. These things are like faucets you don't choose to turn on. A bit inconvenient.
  • When you're breastfeeding, you sometimes feel like the sole caregiver. Seems like ALL I ever do is feed her, feed myself, and try to rest. And feeding myself is a challenge because I'm starving all the time.

As for the "ring of fire" I promised we'd talk about... when the baby was crowning during delivery, it burned like the worst pain I'd ever felt in my life. My epidural had made everything pain-free up until now, but Erica had mentioned that she thought you'd feel it with or without pain meds. She was right, unfortunately! And in childbirth class, they described it as a ring of fire, which couldn't be more accurate. OWWEEE!!! Now this pain is followed by a slimy, bloody baby being laid on your chest which is the most amazing experience I've ever had. So, is it worth it? TOTALLY!

During labor, I couldn't control my body functions. Luckily, they put a urinary catheter in so the pee wasn't a problem. And I never pooped like everyone worries about. But what I did a lot of is fart. Especially everytime the doctor would check me which is quite unfortunate and awkward to fart ON your doctor. And with all of your loved ones in the room... My suggestion would be not to eat Taco Bell and lots of ice cream (I'm lactose intolerant) the night before you have your baby. :)

Thank you all so much for all of the wonderful comments and compliments! It has been so much fun reading them with my husband and I am so thankful for this beautiful community of people I've become so involved with. You are all fantastic!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Mr. Milkman made a Delivery!!!

My milk came in yesterday big-time!!! I was starting to freak out a little because I felt like she was going to starve, but we are feeding like crazy now. She literally lives on my breast, which I actually think is amazing. Sometimes she's eating, sometimes she just wants to hang out with it, but either way- she's doing great.

Breastfeeding is better than I expected, like most things pregnancy and baby related. She latches on really well (better on the left), and my nipples don't really hurt. The girls are a little huge and engorged right now, but it's a lot better when she eats.

We had our first pediatric appointment today and her weight was 7 lbs, 4 oz. Yesterday at the lactation consultation, she weighed 7 lbs even, so I was SUPER excited about her gain since my milk arrived. Yep, you see it right. She's sleeping in our bed! Why you ask? Because she doesn't sleep ANYWHERE else. She likes to cuddle with her mama's breasts to sleep and then she does great. We actually got about 5-6 hours last night (with feedings in between) which was great. Sure I wake up every 5 seconds to check on her, but its still "sleep". Amazing how little sleep you can actually survive on. And I'm still happy when she wakes me up because I feel like I miss her when we're sleeping. Crazy, I know.

This is my favorite pucker face! She does this all the time and it melts my heart.


Here she is in her "going-to-the-doctor" outfit! Too cute.
So, we adore this little girl more than anything ever. I can't even possibly explain the love I feel for her. It almost hurts me sometimes because she is so amazing. I guess it took God over 2 years for us to get her because she is so special. Ones like her don't come around all the time!



Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Meet Our Little Miracle, Paisley Kate

The post I have been waiting 2 years to write is finally here and I can't really believe it. On Saturday, I woke up at 8:30 a.m. with BAD contractions. By the 2nd one, I knew I was in "real" labor. They were SO different than the braxton-hicks. I got out of bed and decided that I'd take a bath, until water ran down both legs. The pain after that got pretty unbearable immediately and I was having contractions every 2 1/2 to 3 minutes. So, I called Aaron at work to tell him it was "the big day". He decided I was kidding until I nearly leapt through the phone to wring his neck. :)

We got to the hospital an hour later and I was dilated to a 4 and having very active contractions. They quickly got me moved to an L&D room. I got my epidural (AMAZING- we'll talk about this in its own post soon) at a 6 and then my doctor broke my water. (Apparently at home, it had just leaked a pocket of fluid).

After he broke my water, labor started picking up even more and baby's head compressed the cord which caused the heartrate to drop. Within seconds, my room was a madhouse of nurses and doctors working to get baby stable. I thought I was paralyzed from the epidural until I was worried about my baby and suddenly I was able to turn from side to side, get on my hands and knees, etc. They actually gave me a shot of terbutaline to slow things down which worked and baby was good again.

I progressed to 10 cm and only pushed 12 minutes before introducing the most incredible baby ever into this world. I was in labor for 9 hours total which I consider VERY fortunate. It was the best (yet most painful) experience of my life and made all of our struggles worth it. She truly changed my whole life instantly and I am so in love with her.

Thought I'd post some pictures for now and tell more about her tomorrow since it's almost 1 a.m., my night owl is wide awake for the 3rd night in a row, and I'm currently breastfeeding her while typing with just 1 hand. Wow, I'm a mommy!!!!!


Our 7 pound, 9 ounce baby girl

In her carseat about to leave the hospital


Our tiny OSU fan


Those chubby cheeks are made for kisses...


Daddy's legs in the background, although mine probably look that bad!


All "girlied" up at the hands of the grandmas

Snuggling with daddy- our postpartum room was awesome. It had a queen size, comfortable bed so we could both sleep in it and of course get in some baby snuggling time!


Right after birth... I prayed so hard for a baby with hair and hers is perfect. Not the mullet we expected!
Thank you all so much for following us through all of this. I can only say to those still trying, keep the faith. It will all pay off in the end. I never, ever thought that this day would happen for me and I still think I'm going to wake up to find that it was all a dream. I love her with all of my heart and can't wait to tell you all my new mom thoughts about "the ring of fire", embarrasing moments during delivery, and my fun with breastfeeding...









Monday, August 23, 2010

Gil is here!!!

We had our perfect baby GIRL on Saturday after a relatively easy 8 hour labor and delivery. I'll update more later, but Paisley doesn't really understand why it was a bad idea to have a baby party the last 2 nights instead of sleep. So I'll take a nap and then give all the details and pictures.

We love her so much!!!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Gil is staying put!

Aaron and I went to my weekly check-up this morning which went well! My cervix last week was 1 cm and 40% effaced. Today it was 2 cm and 70% effaced. She seemed really pleased with the progress. I was hoping for 100% and 3 cm, so it fell short of my goals... all these painful, random contractions are doing something though. And apparently my cervix is really low because the checks don't hurt at all. I wouldn't even call it uncomfortable, thankfully!

Gil's heartrate was in the low 120's and even upper teens today during the doppler, so she hooked me up to a non-stress test which was perfectly normal. Lots of movement and appropriate accelerations in heartrate. Still, she decided to send me downstairs for an ultrasound to check my amniotic fluid levels. (Have I mentioned that they are all super cautious with me because they're my co-workers and my history hasn't been great?)

Ultrasound went really well. Alan (our tech) showed us the kidneys, heart, bladder, parts of the brain, spinal cord, femur, abdomen, etc. Then we got a couple of great looks at the sweet little face. He pointed out how FAT the baby's cheeks are. I mean they are really FAT!!! Guess I've been feeding Gil just fine...

I asked if there was any hair (my biggest wish after the baby being healthy) and he could see pretty long hair in the back of the head. He can't tell about the rest because baby is too far into the pelvis at this point. So, I either get my baby with a good head of hair OR we have a baby with a mullet. Or possibly male-pattern baldness. Awesome...

And the real kicker... the estimated weight was 8 pounds, 3 ounces. YIKES!!! How do they think that will possibly come out? He did mention that it's plus or minus a pound. I don't like the sounds of plus a pound! You can do the math. TOO BIG for this girl. So, they all think it's more like the 7 pound range, but I guess we'll find out soon.

I go back on Monday which I know will be the day we start discussing Plan B on how we're going to get this very cozy baby to move out. And I'm kinda sad about it. Part of me wonders if my ovarian drilling will continue to restore my fertility or if my PCOS is going to win the battle again. I just can't stand the thought that I'll never be able to be pregnant again. But I guess I should just be really thankful for the past 9 months. And I am SO looking forward to kissing those chunky cheeks and brushing that rockin' mullet.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

39 weeks... where are you baby?

Gil and I have made it to 39 weeks and apparently this situation is working out so well that we've decided to just stay pregnant FOREVER!!! I have absolutely loved my pregnancy and have been enjoying it even more now that I've been off work. Thank goodness I decided to take off when I did because my sleeping is getting to be very erratic lately so I like to take random naps throughout the day and then I may or may not sleep at night.

Early on, I wished for a miserable end to my pregnancy so that I would be ready to lose the bump and have the baby. Unfortunately, that has not happened and I'm going to miss the bump like crazy! However, it will be nice to be able to wear shirts that cover my stomach. And I can no longer see the stick to pee on at the doc's office. I just have to make a blind guess which can be quite a mess. :)


The tank top is really trying to meet up with the shorts... Ignore the line down my side, my tank inseam left a mark. Somehow I actually had imagined that I'd be bigger at this point.
We hadn't ever taken a picture of the bump lying down so I decided we needed one before Gil pops out! Can you imagine how not attractive that is going to look when this baby comes out? I feel like it should just mold back into normal when the baby is done using it! My pregnant belly is still fascinating to me and I will always think pregnant bodies are beautiful. The amount of time and work it took for us to get here makes me think that it's even more fantastic. We are SO blessed to be having this baby!
I see the doctor again on Thursday so we'll see how things are coming along down there. I'm really not wanting to be induced unless we are a week late, so I'm willing to wait this out. And something about going into spontaneous labor is just so exciting! Gil will hopefully decide that it's time to meet us soon and we won't have to do anything to encourage it along. :)


Monday, August 16, 2010

Prayers for a Little Girl

You have all been such an incredible support system for me that I felt like you were the right people to let in on a blog I recently started following. A newborn baby girl named Ella was born over a week ago with significant heart and lung problems. Her parents had her in Dallas to be in the best hospital to deal with her conditions. This is the same hospital that my cousin Amee went to when her twin girls were born. You might remember that one of the twins had hypoplastic left heart and ended up passing away from it after a 3-month battle.

This little girl has endured one surgery already and had the 2nd this morning which did not go as expected. Please stop by their blog and offer some support and encouragement if you get a chance. I do not know them personally, but found them through a mutual friend. Of course their story struck a chord with me since we so recently went through a similar situation with little Kate.

Here's the address: elladawn.blogspot.com

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Boy or Girl???

I decided to have a wild and crazy time this morning and look online at gender predictor tests. Early on I did a couple, but couldn't answer many of the questions yet. I think the take-home point here is that maybe, just maybe, they don't actually mean crap. Let's talk about some of the ways you should know if it's a boy or a girl:

1.) Sleeping in a bed with my pillow to the south means it's a girl. What they don't take into consideration is that we don't have another option. If we put our bed on the opposite wall, it would be blocking both our doorway and our bathroom. And what if your pillow is to the east or west? Does that just not happen?

2.) Your urine is a dull yellow color so you should expect a girl. Umm... maybe it's just because I come from a medical background, but I'm pretty sure it's because I'm well-hydrated. If I don't drink enough water, guess what happens? My urine is brighter yellow, which I guess means that I'm then having a boy. So, your hydration level determines the gender. You want a girl, drink a lot of water...

3.) Your baby's heartrate has been below 140, so it's a boy. I actually had a hard time even answering this because the heartrate has been all over the place. We've had numbers all around the 130's and 140's, but it's been as high as 160. So I'm throwing this one out too!

4.) I'm carrying low and out front, so it's a boy. It hasn't always been incredibly low, I kinda thought it was in the middle for most of the pregnancy. Now, it looks like the baby is trying to just fall out. But I did gain my weight all in the belly, so I guess it's a boy. Or I'm just very lucky.

5.) Your feet are not colder than before pregnancy, so it's a girl. You know what it is? It's August in Oklahoma and the temperature has been over 100 degrees for a LONG time. Nobody should have cold feet right now!

6.) Not sure how this one even played in because it doesn't mention it in the results, but it asked how I feel about orange juice. The choices are "doesn't like OJ" or "must have it every day". Now, I'm a big fan of OJ, but it's not like I get out of bed in the morning going through withdrawal for it. Can I not get a choice of "likes it, but not in an excessive way." Apparently, they don't even know how it factors in to gender prediction, they were just curious!


You want me to let you on the super-accurate results of these tests? Well, childbirth.org gave us a 56% chance of a girl. Babyzone.com says it could be a boy. Pregnancy.com goes with a 50-50 chance either way. And according to the chinese gender chart, it's a girl. So, it looks like no one is too willing to commit either way! Or maybe my body is just really confusing. Must be the PCOS, makes it hard to predict ovulation and now gender!

And even you, my dear blog readers, are pretty split on the gender poll. Girl votes have always been slightly higher than boys, but it's stayed pretty even all along. I'm getting so excited to find out for sure, and it actually makes my heart race every time I imagine the doctor announcing, "IT'S A ___!!!"

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Doctor's Appointment

I saw Dr. D today and everything is still looking good. I've gained an even 30 pounds with this pregnancy which he's happy about, bp is actually the lowest it's been in a while, and baby's heartrate was in the 160's. (It was higher today because I had just had a contraction which caused it to go up.)

He measured me for the 1st time and I'm 40% effaced and 1 cm dilated, so my cervix isn't doing a lot at this point but it isn't completely closed! Of course, he reminded me that it doesn't really mean anything in the grand scheme of things. Baby could come today or hang in there for 2 more weeks. Who knows?

I was hoping for something along the lines of 80% and 3 cm, but I guess I just have a little cervical envy... Seems like everyone else is further along at this point. I'm getting super anxious for the baby to make its grand arrival, but I'm still wishing I could stay pregnant forever. Baby Gil is happy in the uterus, and I'm just as happy about having him/her in there. However, it's starting to seem like the uterus is getting a little unhappy about it's ever-growing resident. :)

Anyways, I go back in one week to check again unless the little rascal gets here before then!!!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

38 weeks: Are we there yet?

How in the world did we get to 38 weeks already??? I can't believe that I found out I was pregnant over 34 weeks ago. And then in another way, it seems like it's been so much longer than that. I think part of the reason it seems like I've been pregnant forever is because I found out last August that I was pregnant the 1st time. I found out the baby didn't make it, had my D&C, and then was fortunate enough to become pregnant again right away. So, it's been pretty much continuous pregnancy for a year now.

Not to mention the fact that we started trying for this baby 26 months ago. We have dreamed of this child for so long now. It seems like it will still never happen. I walk into the nursery and can't help but feel that it will never be occupied. Everything is ready for the baby to come home, yet it seems like we're just pretending. What are WE doing with a carseat in our backseat? Who are we to buy stuff at Babies-R-Us? Are we really trying to fool everyone into believing that we're going to be a family of 3 soon?
My belly suggests that a baby is definitely on the way! It's quite interesting to keep your pants covering all your goodies when your belly has dropped so low. I don't exactly have any sort of waistline left to hold my waistband where it belongs. Not to mention that I have FEW shirts left that actually cover my stomach. I used to make fun of the big pregnant girls who walked around with their tummies out. Now I get it. They aren't doing it on purpose. Eventually you can actually outgrow your maternity clothes and you're past the point of caring...

Still feeling good. I've really enjoyed being home this week just wrapping up loose ends that I need to get done. This girl was NEVER meant to be a morning person, so I am LOVING sleeping in. I get up in time for Price is Right (love the showcase showdown) and then get ready to have lunch with Aaron. The afternoons I'm using to get stuff done. Tomorrow I'm going to get a pedicure since I can't reach my feet. And I cannot go into labor without my toenails looking good! If you have to be in stirrups, at least your feet should look great.

It's getting to the point now that I'm wondering all the time when the baby will be here. Most likely we still have a couple more weeks, but you never know. And that makes this point of pregnancy really exciting and a little fear-inducing!!!

Monday, August 9, 2010

Crazy hormones

Thank goodness I'm not usually a betting person, because I had chosen today as Gil's birthday on the calendar. Now, I realize I still have 15 days until my due date, but what a cool date today is. It's 08-09-10. Seemed perfect to me, apparently Gil has other ideas! And don't get me wrong, I'm still in no way hurrying to get this adorable baby out of there.

Sorry if I haven't been returning some of your phone calls, I'm just kinda taking time to myself to enjoy my last few weeks (days?) of having "Amber-time". Aaron says that it's when I'm in "Amberland", and it means that I become a little secluded and enjoy spending time alone. For most people, they think I need constant attention and support when a big life event is underway. As an only child, I have a different way of seeing things. It usually gets on my nerves if too many people want to be around and I feel overstimulated if I don't get to be by myself now and then.

I love that I have so many people around who care about me and Gil. It's truly amazing that we were blessed with such great friends and family. I just need a little time to focus on all the changes that we are about to go through. My life is definitely about to change (thanks strangers for continuously reminding me...) and I'm so excited about Gil's arrival. But I'm also getting a little nervous about becoming someone's mother, the sleep-deprivation, breastfeeding, extra expenses, choosing childcare, etc.

Those thoughts have been floating around for some time now, but my hormones seem to be a little on the crazier end lately and I've even ended up crying unexpectedly on occasion. Bear with me, it really does make this all better that I know I have so many people supporting us right now!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Check-up

I had my weekly check-up again today and things went fine. My bp is staying stable, the holter monitor came back good this time, and baby is growing perfectly. I'm actually feeling better and better the further along I get. I'm sure some of that is due to my part-time schedule (which equals more rest) and some is my attitude that things should be okay now.


Tomorrow is my last day of work before maternity leave which is crazy! I look forward to a week or two to stock up on sleep before Gil arrives.... that is, if the baby doesn't come on out. We will start checking my cervix next week, and I'm anxious to see if it's doing anything productive.


Both the OB and the nurse practitioner (both co-workers of mine) are getting really excited about my upcoming delivery and were giddy today. Which made me even more ecstatic! They both told me to call if I have ANY concerns no matter what time of the day or night. And he asked if I had my bags packed. Which seems like a simple obvious question to most people, but to me it meant that someone else believes that I will actually be going to the hospital soon to have a BABY!!!!!! And he's a doctor, so he should know...



After our appointment, Gil and I decided we should prop up our feet and relax. Aaron was sweet enough to cut up a pineapple for us which I ate all of, except for 2 pieces that Aaron ate. :) I am going to miss this built-in TV tray that Gil provides. Only problem is when the baby starts kicking at whatever I've propped up on it. One more appointment down, how many more to go?

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

FULL TERM!!!

Dear Gil,
You and I have accomplished a full 37 weeks with you in utero!!! There were many days over the past 2 years that I doubted that I could ever be in the wonderful situation I am in now. Looking back over it all, I would do it a million times again in order to have you in my belly. My love for you is unlike anything I have ever experienced and I truly did not know that I could love someone so much without ever having laid eyes on you. (Except on ultrasound.) I would do anything to keep you safe and happy, and I am so in love with you already.

We're getting rather huge these days even though I still feel good. I'm a little fearful that you're setting records in there with the way you're growing! You still kick and wiggle and roll around, and it still makes me happier than anything in this world. I just want the rest of the world to stop when you move, so I can fully concentrate on it without distraction. Sometimes I just want to keep you in there forever so I can always be with you and feel that you are safe and comfortable.

The family is REALLY anxious for you to get here, and people are starting to suggest that I do ridiculous things to induce labor, such as drink castor oil. We really don't want a big nasty case of diarrhea at this point, so I'm going to pass and let you come when you're ready. And to be honest, I'm in no rush to evict you. You've been an amazing "roommate" and I will miss having you so close. Of course, I can't even imagine how incredible it will be to hold you and kiss you!

Let's take a look at what you've done to your momma's belly this week:



People keep saying they can't tell I'm pregnant from behind, so I had to have a picture for proof. My normally voluptuous rear-end doesn't look as big right now in comparison to the curvy belly, but otherwise I guess it isn't too bad! Your daddy and I put our house on the OKC pond tour a couple of weeks ago and here are some pictures from that. We don't normally color-coordinate our clothes, so don't worry that your parents are complete dorks! (Even though we are science nerds...)
I love this picture because my belly is humongous!!!! You were really poking yourself out there for this one. :)

Your arrival could be anyday now and we are beyond ecstatic about it. It's all I think about all the time, and I get teary-eyed just thinking about meeting you. You have so many people who are going to love you so incredibly much, and have been waiting for so long for you to come into our lives. Thanks for being such a good, little fetus and thanks in advance for sleeping through the night, never throwing temper-tantrums, and limiting your pooping to convenient times and places. :)

Sunday, August 1, 2010

It's crazy how big I thought I was so many months ago. I'd stare at my barely poochy belly in the mirror and wonder how it could possibly get any bigger. Seemed impossible that I could get to the point I am now. In fact, I've actually had several people say that it looks painful. (It's not amazingly.) But for comparison, I thought I'd include a picture from when I was about 5 months pregnant and one taken this weekend. You might notice a little difference. :)


And what's really funny about it is I actually like my pregnant body best right now. I remember telling a friend that I would always look at my naked body in wonder before every shower and she told me that I wouldn't be doing that by the end. I still do it every time I change clothes. And I still think pregnancy is beautiful! Maybe it's because I spent $9,000 and 2 years to get to this point... I'm even proud of my ovarian drilling scars, which are currently hidden from me by the bump that they helped me get!

Lately I've been thinking back over this pregnancy and how it seems like it's lasted forever in some ways and how quickly it's passed in other ways. Kinda can't remember not being pregnant with Gil, and it's hard to imagine life without a baby in the belly. I am so thankful for the chance to experience this and hope that we will get to do this again. (As long as Gil isn't the spawn of Satan...)
Side note: Is anyone else starving??? Starting about a week ago, I became ravishingly hungry all the time. I will eat a huge meal and be searching desperately for a snack an hour later. And I'm not sure how anyone could survive on baked chicken and veggies at this point. My meals consist of heavy duty food that should keep me satisfied for the rest of the day. Instead it wears off after 30 minutes. I bought a bag of about 20 mangos today that should keep me preoccupied between meals!