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Crazy hormones

Thank goodness I'm not usually a betting person, because I had chosen today as Gil's birthday on the calendar. Now, I realize I still have 15 days until my due date, but what a cool date today is. It's 08-09-10. Seemed perfect to me, apparently Gil has other ideas! And don't get me wrong, I'm still in no way hurrying to get this adorable baby out of there.

Sorry if I haven't been returning some of your phone calls, I'm just kinda taking time to myself to enjoy my last few weeks (days?) of having "Amber-time". Aaron says that it's when I'm in "Amberland", and it means that I become a little secluded and enjoy spending time alone. For most people, they think I need constant attention and support when a big life event is underway. As an only child, I have a different way of seeing things. It usually gets on my nerves if too many people want to be around and I feel overstimulated if I don't get to be by myself now and then.

I love that I have so many people around who care about me and Gil. It's truly amazing that we were blessed with such great friends and family. I just need a little time to focus on all the changes that we are about to go through. My life is definitely about to change (thanks strangers for continuously reminding me...) and I'm so excited about Gil's arrival. But I'm also getting a little nervous about becoming someone's mother, the sleep-deprivation, breastfeeding, extra expenses, choosing childcare, etc.

Those thoughts have been floating around for some time now, but my hormones seem to be a little on the crazier end lately and I've even ended up crying unexpectedly on occasion. Bear with me, it really does make this all better that I know I have so many people supporting us right now!

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  1. KatieAugust 9, 2010 at 5:54 PM

    Girl, you don't need to apologize to anyone for wanting some time to yourself! I am in the same boat in terms of wanting alone time, and the hormones are in full effect. This is such a huge thing for us - don't you kind of feel like it's the calm before the storm and we should enjoy our last few days of solitude while we can?!

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  2. TraceyAugust 9, 2010 at 7:08 PM

    Hang in there, girl, and do whatever you need to do. I've definitely been weepy these past few days and it's getting worse. You are so ready for this baby, but taking time to enjoy your alone time sounds very healthy to me.

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  3. basebell6August 10, 2010 at 7:17 AM

    8-9-10 would have been awesome! I know the feeling about "picking a date in your mind". I had picked June 30th in my head because pretty much everyone I knew had their babies 2 weeks early and I have a June birthday. Well then I went 5 days overdue. Hang in there, you are so close to the end!! Crying is definitely allowed :)

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  4. PriscillaAugust 10, 2010 at 8:50 AM

    I feel that same way!! GREAT post!! XOXO

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  5. AnonymousAugust 10, 2010 at 3:10 PM

    You can always take all the time you need! We'll still be here! :)

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  6. AnonymousAugust 10, 2010 at 3:24 PM

    BTW, meant to tell you that I love the pic of you and Gil chillin' on the sofa with pinapple belly! :) And the pond is absolutely gorgeous!!

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