Lack of menstrual cycles has been a big part of who I am, so imagine my surprise today when I started my period. This was totally unexpected considering I just quit nursing 3 weeks ago and wouldn't have put my money on menstruation if I were a betting woman. Which luckily I am not, since I obviously would have lost.
Sitting in her highchair at the vet clinic |
Aaron and I have talked casually about whether we'd want a second baby since the day we had Paisley. But in the back of my mind, I never really thought that it would happen again for us. We just couldn't get that lucky twice. Right? But now I wonder if maybe, just maybe, my body really is "fixed" since my ovarian drilling. Who in the world ever decided that drilling holes through both of a woman's malfunctioning ovaries would reset the whole hormonal mess and allow her to have babies??? It sure shows how desperate I was at that point in the infertility journey that I signed up, no questions asked.
Cleaning off in the sink after pooping out of her diaper, smearing it all over the tile floor and her body. |
And considering that I got pregnant 3 months after my ovarian drilling, miscarried and then got pregnant again 2 months after that, maybe I am actually pretty fertile since the surgery. Which is quite a shocker since this body refused to even consider ovulating on clomid and metformin.
Looking glamorous in her feather boa |
I adored pregnancy, didn't have a bad childbirth experience at all, and love being her mom. My body is actually maybe a little better than before I got pregnant (weight is a little less), and we have the finances to care for another kiddo. Only negatives for me are that I worry about taking time away from Paisley, not having enough time to bond with another baby, and the lack of sleep again! Of course, I could be blessed with a good sleeper next time, but let's not count our chickens before they hatch...
Uggghhhh, so much to think about!!!
Well given my 2 kiddos are 17 1/2 mo apart with the oldest not even 2 yet, I feel I'm qualified to comment on this post!! I had all of those same feelings about whether or not I'd have time for both. I think mamas are amazing and can adapt to any situation!! Emma shares in the bonding I do with Corbin. We all read books, play, and cuddle together. Even though it has been super stressful at times, I wouldn't change it for the world!! Only you and Moose know what's right for your family, but don't ever think you aren't capable of parenting two children adequately. You two are amazing parents!!
ReplyDeleteGo for it. You are probably a super fertile now after having that real life angel Paisley Kate. :) And Im sorry but I couldnt help but laugh at the poop disaster. hehe. :)
ReplyDeleteGo for it!
ReplyDeleteaf actually paid me a visit a couple of weeks ago - and I'm still nursing 8-10x/day. Imagine my surprise when she showed! But we'll have to see if she makes a regular appearance.
I'm ready to ttc because if my body is actually fixed, then i want to take advantage of it. Not looking forward to the sleep deprivation thing either, though I'm still living through it. But I think you're such a good mom, you'll find a way to give them the time they need.
I think that whatever time Paisley looses with you will be more than made up for by the time she'll get to spend with a sibling. I hope that ovarian drilling did the trick and another pregnancy will be easy to accomplish.
ReplyDeleteWell, I guess I should weigh in, huh?! Only you and hubby can make this decision. I will say that 2 babies is exponentially harder than 1 - not just double the work. BUT, I have them 6 months apart which I think is unique. Having a toddler and a baby is more common and, I would guess, a little easier to navigate:).
ReplyDeleteAs for your worries: 1) You will be surprised at how much time you find for each baby (other things become less important) and Paisley will barely notice 2) You will bond with baby #2, no question. The time will be there and it is just a natural occurrence. If I had the time (and energy, which I think is more needed in bonding), then you will too:)) and 3) Yep, you'll lose A LOT of sleep - especially when they tag team you and one is up and finally goes back to sleep and then the other wakes up screaming, lol!
All that said, NO you are not crazy for wanting a 2nd child!! Addison, our second miracle, brings us joy and love every second of the day. She is our angel. While it is hard, I wouldn't want my life any other way because I adore both of my children SO, SO, SO much. Go for it, girl. I can't wait to see where this takes you:)!