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Very Blessed

Our photographer posted the rest of our maternity photos today (61 total) and something about them made my heart feel so full.  It was as if seeing my big belly with my perfect little girl just brought everything to reality for me.  We are really going to have 2 kids. 

I can't count how many nights I went to sleep wondering if we'd ever be able to carry one.  Or which path we'd have to go down in order to have a family.  Or how many times I cried myself to sleep over the grief we were enduring. 

But now I have proof in pictures.  My family is growing once again.  Definitely the last time I'll be pregnant which makes me super sad because I LOVE it, but maybe not the last of our kids.  We're still very interested in adoption and feel that we will go down that road one day. 

Sitting in the chair the other day, I was holding Paisley on my lap and Deuce was happily kicking around in my belly.  And it took my breath away.  Here I was, experiencing the greatest thing in life for a second time. 








This is the final chapter on a very long, challenging, and sometimes painful journey that was worth every single minute.  I only wish I'd known then how beautiful it would all turn out.

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  1. What beautiful pictures!

    It seems sometimes we luck out and everything goes full circle!

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  2. I love all these pictures ! I SO wish I would have done some because Addy was most likely my one and only full term pregnancy:(. I, too, loved being pregnant (although I could have done without the pregnant AND newborn situation, lol!). I love that you all are considering adoption:). Paisley is SO freakin' adorable in these pictures. And you look so happy! I know what you mean about wishing you would have known how it would turn out so you didn't have to cry all those nights - I wish the same. But then I might be one of those moms that took it all for granted. And I'm not, not ever.

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  3. Great pics! Congrats on your beautiful family!

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