Amber and Aaron

Amber and Aaron

The Fun We've Already Had...

  • Graham Tomas born July 31 at 5:04 P.M. weighing 8 lbs, 12 oz.
  • December 2, 2011: PREGNANT!!!
  • Paisley Kate arrived August 21 at 5:38 P.M. weighing 7 lbs, 9 oz
  • DUE DATE: August 25, 2010!!!
  • Dec. 14, 2009- PREGNANT!!!
  • Oct. 07,2009- Had elective D&C.
  • Sept 28, 2009- No embryo on ultrasound. :(
  • Sept 15th, 2009- We found out we're PREGNANT!!!
  • Sept '09- Aaron had varicocele repair.
  • July '09- IUI #1 with HCG shot= No such luck
  • April '09- Ovarian drilling surgery, followed by hospitalization for uterine infection
  • Jan-Mar '09- metformin + 3 rounds of clomid= no ovulation
  • Dec. 11, 2008- Hysterosalpingogram (Fancy word for shooting dye through the ovaries. OUCH)
  • Nov '08- Sent to RE. Tried metformin alone for two months (No ovulation)
  • Oct '08- Diagnosed with PCOS based on amenorrhea and crazy hormone levels.
  • June '08- Aaron convinced me to start trying.
  • June '04- Got Hitched!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

You're Too Good To Me...

After numerous facebook messages, texts, and comments left by my very sweet and loyal followers, I've decided that this blog must go on.  You all reminded me that even if people don't comment very often, it doesn't mean that they no longer read my updates.  Apparently some people like to follow my boring, pretty predictable life.  And let's face it, I really do love writing.   Even if no one reads it.

So, it's going to just have to fit in the schedule.  No more half-assing it.  I need to be better about commenting on others' posts and updating more frequently.   Because this blog truly has been my lifeline during the hardest times of my life and you are amazing friends who deserve better.  Who knows what life may hand me next.  I may just need you all again. 

Since I'm back from retirement already (sure was a lovely break), I had a comment about baby #2.  Good question.  How about you all just answer that for me?  It's not nearly as black and white as I'd hoped it would be.  The thought of going back to the RE right now is just not happening.  You know, I'd made an appointment.  And then cancelled it since Aaron was in the hospital trying to die on me.  Not a good time to go see the doctor for family planning.  And then it just happened to never get re-scheduled.

I tracked my BBT charts for a couple of months but then tucked them back away in my nightstand drawer.  The thermometer got shoved in there too, never to return.  I ran out of OPK's a while back and never bothered to buy more.  Don't even talk to me about cervical mucus.  It's like I'm super lazy this time around. 

There are moments that I think there is nothing I'd like more than another baby. Usually when Paisley is being unusually adorable and possibly asleep. And then there are just as many other moments that I'd rather cut out my own uterus with a dull knife.  Typically after she smears poop all over my kitchen floor or has a huge meltdown in public.  I literally change my mind constantly.

So, I've kind of left it up to fate until now.  No birth control for most equals certain pregnancy.  Considering I haven't been on birth control in 3.5 years and I've managed to have one child, chances are a 2nd may not happen anyways.  And definitely not on its own.  I mean, Paisley was born almost 15 months ago and I'm not pregnant again.  But I'm not feeling it for intervention.  The drive to do anything in the world to have a baby is O-V-E-R.  I've got my precious baby.  And she certainly keeps me busy enough.  She almost made me quit this blog, for goodness sake!!!

12 comments:

  1. yay so glad you'll keep blogging!!

    #2 questions... bleh... we announced we wouldn't want a second child, then decided we did, then decided we can't afford it. so, yeah, I get it's not that simple!! AND, we (you and I) are so freaking lucky for our amazing, healthy daughters as it is :)

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  2. Yay, I am so glad you are staying!!! I ned to get beter at commenting too!
    I get the back and forth on number two.
    I am pretty avery is it for us and I am thriled with!

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  3. Yay! You're not leaving us :) I seem to have this fantasy that my husband and I are going to get pregnant on our own after this lil miracle is born. I think to myself "Oh we'll be so busy and happy with the baby that it'll just a surprise us and happen on it's own!" Hmmmm, yeah right. I like to think that but I highly doubt we'll get that lucky. We do have four snowbabies, so who knows what we'll decide in a few years. But I know one thing is for sure, we have run out of money in the IF treatment department, so if we ever want a second child its going to have to be a surprise miracle or a snowbaby try. I was laughing so hard at the "cut out my uterus with a dull knife" comment hahaha

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  4. Sorry I haven't been commenting much either. =( I feel like such a slacker. I will try to be better because I really do love to hear about you and Paisley! TTC again is really scary and honestly I don't know if I would ever be READY 100% again, so we are just holding our breath and jumping right back in figuring that we want them close in age anyway so may as well haha.

    But I definitely get you on wanting another one when all 4 of ours are laughing together or hugging on each other and then feeling like jumping out the window at the thought when they're all clawing each others eyes and hair out. AHHHH! LOL

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  5. So glad you will be sticking around!

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  6. Yay -- you're staying! :)

    Did she really smear poop on your floor? Oh my!

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  7. So glad you're continuing the blog!! I read your blog consistently but I usually check it on my phone and it's hard to post comments for some reason. I like reading about your boring life. :)

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  8. Hooray, you're staying. Your stories are what I check first when I open my computer (saved to my favorites). Kinda love being able to read about your so called "boring" life. Except not so boring to read. You are just freakin' hilarious. I am where you are with a 2nd. Want one, sometimes when I get baby fever. Otherwise, it is very expensive and, whew at times I think there's no way. Keep the stories coming but don't stress yourself to make it happen. We "followers" will take what we can get. :O)

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  9. You've got time to change your mind. I say wait and enjoy the time with your princess!

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  10. Wow! I followed your blog before you announced you were pregnant, then forgot my old blogs password and couldnt remember everyone I followed..then stumbled upon your blog again recently. I went back and read from the start and it's so amazing how far you have come! I love seeing pictures of Paisley, she's such a gorgeous girl! Your family is beautiful.

    I am curious about what came of the fish situation, did Sheriff Aaron flush the bad ones? Hows the goat?

    Glad you decided to keep blogging!

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  11. Nothin' like a good 'ole blogging shut down scare to bring all of us commenters out of the woodworks huh?! Lol

    I'm really REALLY bad about reading blogs and not commenting. But, who has the time?? Just know that we are here and we think you're honesty is halarious and even if no one comments...well... It's apparent that you still have readers.

    I am just like you on the whole "kid #2 situation". Some days I can't imagine that I would ever think of denying my son of a sibling. Other days, the not-so-fun days of parenthood... I'm also very willing to administrate my own uteran removal. I think it's really a catch 22. There are good things and ba things about both. And also, in my personal opinion how much help a mom of more than one child has. If you have parents or in laws who are willing to help out a lot.. I would say go ahead and shoot for another baby! But if you're like me and have parents who are swamped with grandchildren from every direction.. Then it makes me think about NOT having another one much more seriously!

    I mean.. I can barely keep up with the ONE child I already have. I don't know if I could even DO two?? I'm afraid I'd be like one of those moms that loses her kid at the beach.

    So I'm excited to see what you finally decide!

    God bless. Xoxo

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  12. Ok so you know my feelings on the "trying" thing, but with that said don't judge you wanting another kid on how "difficult" it can be with one. You just "do it" and you have twice the love, twice the overflow of your heart. No matter what God will give you the answer ;)
    Kandice

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